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“I’ve lived too long with pain. I won’t know who I am without it.”

"O Bom Deus concedeu-me a graça de conhecer o mundo na medida suficientemente exata para o desprezar, e dele me conservar afastada."

Is there another life? Shall I awake and find all this a dream? There must be, we cannot be created for this sort of suffering.

“I’m in pain because the day is ending and somehow l am never healing.”

Find meaning. Distinguish melancholy from sadness. Go out for a walk. It doesn't have to be a romantic walk in the park, spring at its most spectacular moment, flowers and smells and outstanding poetical imagery smoothly transferring you into another world. It doesn't have to be a walk during which you'll have multiple life epiphanies and discover meanings no other brain ever managed to encounter. Do not be afraid of spending quality time by yourself. Find meaning or don't find meaning but "steal" some time and give it freely and exclusively to your own self. Opt for privacy and solitude. That doesn't make you antisocial or cause you to reject the rest of the world. But you need to breathe. And you need to be.