ofsharpe:
whatmai:
theo approached her, his dark eyes drinking in the sight of her. no matter how she dressed, she always managed to take his breath away. whether she was dressed to the nines as she was now, or whether she was dressed down.. she would always be the most beautiful woman in the world to him. biting his bottom lip, he then combed a hand back through his own thick dark locks, pushing them away from his face. there was something that didn’t quite sit right with the male when it came to the idea of mai spending time with someone else, nor when it came to her being forced to spend time with someone who viewed her as a prize to be bought. as soon as she spoke, he felt her jab go straight to his chest. eyes moved to the ground, his head shaking slowly. “it was selfish of me to bid, i know.” theo started then took a seat beside her. “and.. keeping you from someone who may potentially be your one true love, the person you are destined to spend the rest of your life with.. that was perhaps a little selfish of me too.” he took a breath, turning to face her then. “but.. mai.. i- i care about you. i care about you too much to stand by and watch as some rake tries to claim you as his due to the mere fact that they paid enough money to spend the night with you.” there was a slight hint of jealousy in his tone, the idea of someone else wining and dining the woman who held his heart making him feel sick to his stomach.
She had not expected to see him, after their last interaction, which was unwanted on his part, she assumed he would keep his distance. However, she was receiving mixed signals from him, and her mind was full of ‘what if’s’ and considering if her own actions had caused such destruction to their friendship. She had tired to speak it through, with the likes of Lucas, and instead felt more confused. His conclusion had been that Theo held feelings for her, but she had not believed him. How could someone refuse to be around her, but hold feelings for her? She could not understand it. She shook her head, eyes moving to meet his, lost almost in his deep hues. She wished things were different, in fact, she wished to take his hand and reassure him that she was there for him, whatever was causing his distance. “I don’t believe it is selfish – merely confusing mostly.” She confirmed, arms folding across her chest in defence. She needed answers, after months of uncertainties, she needed to know why he was treating her this way. “If you know me at all, it is that despite my father’s best efforts, I am avoiding marriage.” She sighed, huffing a little as she did. “You are confusing me, one moment you cannot stand the sight of me, the second you are here, bidding on my basket – you know I will be repaying you every penny.” She spoke defensively, shaking her head.
as she spoke, mentioning that his choice to purchase her basket had been confusing, theo nodded. he understood where she was coming from, and that should the roles have been reversed, he would likely feel that same way she did. he didn't like to confuse her, but things were complicated. he couldn't exactly just tell her that he bought her basket because he didn't want anyone else to court her. she needed to find someone of wealth to wed, someone with a title and someone who could support her. he would never be that person, and in turn the two of them could never be together. though that did not stop theo from acting selfishly, from acting upon his own desire to have her all to himself. biting his bottom lip, his gaze them dropped to the ground, his stomach churning as he gnawed on the flesh of his lip. "mai.. you know that i know you better than anyone but.. i was not sure whether your feelings toward marriage may have changed in the past year." he spoke, softened eyes then moving up to find her face again. her beauty was beyond words. she always managed to take his breath away, even when she was being distant as she was now. "i- i know. i'm sorry. perhaps i should not have. i just-" he shook his head, inhaling sharply. he had to just say it, didn't he? with a shaky breath, he then met her gaze once again. "it was selfish. i was selfish. i bid on your basket because the thought of someone else getting to court you.. getting to be with you in the way i wish i could haunted me. it still haunts me." he admits, shaking his head and clasping a hand around the back of his own neck. his eyes were focused on the ground, afraid to look at her.















