EMusical Welcome To The Ensemble

I got my money up. I got super fit. Became super respected and well known with my city. Everyone literally wants to be my “best friend” upon meeting me. I have hella accomplishments. Everything; and no one. The last time I dated, it lasted 3 months. It was with a lady I learned was a drug addict, ex-stripper and a deadbeat mom who was actually couch hopping and trying to live off of people for free. People looked at me knowing who she was and literally said that we were a good match and I’d be “good for her”.

I worked that hard and became what I am for that? And now to be single two years later? And if you don’t count the three months - single for NINE YEARS?

There’s somedays where my loneliness really gets to me. I’m told all the time how “great” of a person I am but it makes no sense. I’ve watch myself get looked over so many times. I’ve watched no one choose me.

At this age, I’m only surrounded by people getting married, starting families and finding love. The longer I stay single, the more people will look at that as a red flag despite that being far outside of my control. I’ve done everything everyone has suggested. I’ve followed everything society said I “should do”. I’ve been a good person the best I can.

I wrote this song to get it all out. I know not every person finds their “happily ever after” I was just hoping I would.

Back in February I performed at a parade. The parade’s route ended at a library where a high school band performed. I went inside for the rest of the events and came across this GORGEOUS librarian. We chopped it up for a few minutes and that’s when she told me she runs a chess club. Lord knows, I didn’t give af about chess nor did I know how to play but I agreed to go.

For the next few months I gets wrecked and dog walked by all the instructors, grandpas and KIDS in chess. Eventually, I get good enough to be an instructor and I even beat the librarian a beat 2 out of 3. I tried to make a wager to have her come to one of my shows when I won. But the date of the show didn’t work for her because