Nao.

now i understand why people say, "love yourself first before loving someone else." because if i haven't learned how to care for my own heart, how can i be expected to carry someone else's? remember, you can't fill another person's cup when yours is still empty.

do happy endings really exist in life? i don't think they do. movies may end with smiles and happy endings, but what happens after the credits roll? no one knows. life feels the same to me. i don't think life ever truly has a happy ending, because everyone eventually reaches the end of their time, and death will always leave sadness behind for those who remain. we just never know when that ending will come. so in the end... aren't all lives bound to end in sorrow?

one of my acquaintances told me that they're jealous of me, they said i don't have many problems. but do they know that in the middle of the night, i cry alone, holding back the tightness in my chest from all the things i can't say out loud—things i can only let out when the world falls silent?

can i order someone to talk to, with extra affection, please? i'm in a hurry!

do you believe in reincarnation? i’m not sure if i'm allowed to believe in it or not, but if reincarnation truly exists, i'd want to come back as a princess in a kingdom where everything is perfectly in order, with no obstacles in the way. classic, isn't it? i know. but this is me—this is the dream i've held since i was a child. i will forever remain a princess in the kingdom of my dreams.

i want to be someone who stands in the spotlight, someone who doesn't always remain in the shadows of others. i want to step forward to the front row, to engage in conversations with others, and to be more than just an observer, quietly watching the world around me. but what should i do? why do i always seem to left behind? can someone invite me to join in? i want to feel it too—i want to experience the warmth of the world, to see its beauty from the front, not from behind.

i think i have a deep love for all the beautiful things in this world—the sound of waves crashing on the shore, daisies blooming in a garden, the soothing scent of rain, and the breathtaking hues of a sunset. yet, behind all this beauty, i often find myself noticing the world's ugliness. will I never be able to see this beauty forever? why must beauty and pain always exist side by side? wouldn't life be so much better if it were filled only with laughter and joy, instead of tears and sorrow?

i truly want to figure out what my real talent is. i keep wondering, can i do this? can i do that? but in the end, it feels like there’s nothing i can really do. i often find myself lost in thought, trying to understand what makes me special, what part of myself i should nurture and develop. yet, even now, i still haven’t been able to find the answer.