āGet out of my sight.ā Kaz & Mei, Inashiro au where Mei shook off Kazuya's signs n they lost the match xoxo
players run past him, around him, forcing mei to calculate the points, to watch and realize that all the points heās manage to score for the team means absolutely nothing when the other team is in the lead. theyāre in the lead, in the last inning, leaving inashiro in the dust. leaving inashiro in defeat.
kazuyaās words-- as the other team leaps from the dugout and flood the field to cheer and celebrate and raise their voices as the crowd celebrates with them-- kazuyaās words shatters something in mei. it blows the reality of the situation in him, weighs him down as he comes back to the present and is made to realize that they lost they match. they lost the match all because mei wanted to show off and they could have won. insashiro could have wonĀ had mei just listened, had he just done what kazuya asked him to and they would be going farther into the matches, they could have made a legacy for inashiro. they didnāt, and itās meiās fault. he knows that, feels it when his stomach drops, his heart feel like itās stopping, and the back of his eyes burn.
so this time, this time mei doesnāt shake kazuya off. he leaves, getting out of the catchers sight, brushes past their teammates who seem more concerned about him rather than being mad at him for costing them the game. he gets to the dugout, but then his coach...
his coach only makes him feel worse, and heās left there after taking in the words from two of the people he admires the most, left there wallowing because he ended up being more bark than bite. he played himself to be such a great pitcher, but he isnāt. he isnāt and doesnāt this just prove it?Ā
mei doesnāt realize heās been crying, hyperventilating until he realizes he canāt breath, canāt breath and heās choking on air, trying to get anything, anything to stop the pains in his chest, but it only makes him feel worse. he canāt-- he canāt stop it-- only if masa were here-- he moves, lowering himself onto the dugouts floor, and curls up, trying to breath, wondering how he can face kazuya again after that. he has to get better, he has to be a better pitcher, even if heās already spending all his time pitching and training he has to get better. heās coughing, choking on air, struggling to breath, but mei only wants to get better. thatās all he cares about. if he canāt pitch then he doesnāt have any worthĀ being on inashiro.
assorted startersĀ .Ā @yeonban