I hate using dating apps for many reasons but the biggest is that "open to children" is an option on almost all of them. You should have 3 options; Wants children, Don't want children, Undecided. Not knowing if you want kids can be valid sometimes! But being OPEN to children is crazy to me. "Yeah, we can create a whole person with at least 18 years of commitment after the decision is made. If you want. But I'm chill if we don't, too." Just say if you want them or not! I don't want kids, so I always reject/swipe off of profiles that are open to children. I'm even a little iffy on people that aren't certain about pets. You made it to adulthood without figuring out if you were a dog person, cat person, or other? Weird tbh...

And I knew that if there is a heaven and a hell, I must be going to hell. Because for me there is no heaven without you and for you I am not in your heaven, so it must be that I am going to hell. I can see no eternal happiness without knowing you are nearby, without knowing you are happy too, without being there for you. I hope you go to heaven because I know your hell has me in it, and my hell has you in it, too.

And when I am reduced to nothing I can smile knowing I gave everything.

Most women that want something get it and that's why they have to drill into our heads from a young age to never want and never choose yourself first. Here's your reminder that if you don't choose yourself first no one will.

I dream of isekai and martyrdom because I have led a life of offering every ounce of myself to those around me and every shred of self worth I have is directly tied to being useful to the point that I don't even care if I am liked and so I can only dream of dying for the greater good or dying to become a greater good.

I hate water but I mildly tolerate hot water and it upsets every person around me. They ask "Oh, coffee?" as I sip from my insulated cup and I look them in the eye and go "hot water" and I am public enemy number 1 instantly

And the author or writer or producer wanted us to hate her and so she was annoying or mean or dumb and loud, and still yet I loved her. I saw a woman on my page or screen and I knew she had to be my favorite. She had to be there, as a love interest or as a villain or as a plot device, but she was still unwanted by the narrative. The people puppeteering her every move may have hated her, or disliked her enough to make you hate her, but I saw her for what she was - unloved and alone. And so I loved her.