Ridiculous Specimen

You know this times when you just need a certain someone to hold you tight and tell you everything is going to be fine?

Imagine you are going through some shit and feel that and you have people to comfort you but you still want that certain person to do it?

I have this person, we have been spending time together for a while now but we are not officially in a relationship. We do hang out together, go on dates and we are having sex every now and then.

They are quite a person… and a few months ago I would literally find millions of reasons not to actually start a relationship with them. But a lot of things happen between us since then… and now I’m 100 percent sure I am most definitely in love with them and i really want to make it serious.

But I’m scared, terrified even… I know they would most likely be happy to become official cause we’ve had this conversation before (I’ve told them I couldn’t make that decision at that time) but I’m soo afraid that it will change something in our relationship. I’m sure that we would definitely be able to solve any problem between us and we would talk our feelings and everything but l also know that l am far too sensitive when it comes to them and things they do (or do not do)…

That’s why I’ve been putting off the “proposal”. I mean every time I’m preparing myself to ask them to be my partner I eventually decide that “this is not the right time yet” or “the next time would be perfect so I’ll do it then” or literally any reason not make a big move.

And i don’t know what to do… I really want to be with them but I lack confidence and am too anxious to make a move…