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One scoop of creamed potatoes. A slice of butter. Four peas. And as much ice cream as you’d like to eat.
Secretary (2002) - Steven Shainberg
i wanna talk about how strange it was to grow up on the internet watching people like shane dawson and trisha paytas, nickdominates (iykyk girl). that was crazy. like whyyyyyyy ommgg... i was exposed to so many horrible jokes. which yeah some of them were genuinely funny, then we all grew up and realized the rest of them were actually RACIST. so weird. shanaynay used to be my favorite and i didnt even know because i was genuinely like 8 and no one was supervising me on the internet.
i used to continue watching shane dawson because i felt like i didnt have anyone else to watch to comfort me, the humor he used to cope with his insecurities and shit resonated with me in a way that made everything feel okay yknow. insanity. i was like ten btw. which i will say eventually led me to latching parasocially onto pete davidson and saturday night live. whole different story....
obviously i dont watch him now becausee... why would i? i do not want to support him. luckily i wasnt affected by anything his said in the way of making me a bad person like he is.
nickdominates never said anything racist i dont believe but he was still incredibly ableist and problematic with the eating disorder jokes and shit. crazy! was watching him talk about gaping holes at like 11!! LOL literally what.
no one is moving the way they were moving and honestly... lets keep it that way....
this morning when i was journaling (as i dont usually do), i reiterated one of the thougts i think on the most: women and men. i wrote down specifically "if you truly want to be tapped in as a woman and you genuinely believe that men and women are equal, you're gonna have to wake up." in saying this i do not mean that women are socially superior to men, yes women and men deserve to be equal in a social setting, career setting, yknow we both deserve equal rights. but, i am saying i do genuinely think of women as superior in a biological sense. and i mean this wholeheartedly. i mean it genuinely confuses me when i think about how forever its been about men and how they are superior. while you do need sperm or whatever to fertilize an egg, the woman does do all the rest of the work. she grows a child!!! a whole human.
the world consists of nothing but women and their children.
while men can be the bestest fathers, they still do not hold the same biological bond that the mothers do with their children. the child has heard their mother's heartbeat from inside of her, while she was simultaneously growing their heart.
i think it is not only childbirth that makes women biologically superior but also the fact that we literally bleed out of our vaginas... we handle tremendous amounts of pain while going on with our daily lives... the same pain would probably put a man into shock. we handle life in a system that was built for a man, while living in our own, separate inside world, a woman's world.
ill prouldy come out and sya jokingly to my friends, "i hate men." but i dont know how true this is... i actually love men yknow. i love men in a way thats complicated. i fear them. i am mad at them. i lust for them. i am sad for them. i feel empathetic towards them... even after all they have done to women and so many other groups of people. theyve built a system that is not just against all others beings (nature included) but also against themselves.
i just wish it would all give in and there would be a change.
while people say that this has gotten better in the past decade or so... i dont think it actually has. with the revival of "thats so gay" and that redpill shit online convincing men that women are worthless sluts, its actually affected teenage boys and is harboring another generation of hiding emotion, being "strong", avoiding the "weak" traits, mistreating women. i think personally, this is not what a true man is, its instead just a projection of trauma and insecurities probably stemming form primarily emotional neglect passed on.
in my definition of a true man, i see a man who is willing and able to convey his emotions in a way that is nonviolent. i find him to be empathetic and kind in his ways, but also willing to stand up for himself and also what matters most to him. i see him having weak moments but never regretting or shying away from admitting the weak because its human. honestly when i think of a "true" man i think of a woman.
i think this may come from the fact that we as women have kinda been expected to conform and act as a man does, or not act at all, be dumb. i think often times women turn on one another because of this... yknow i see women calling other women bops or sluts or whores, male-centered birds... but if thats all they know its all they know, if thats how they cope with the patriarchy thats how they cope. but i dont think this is how it should be, i think, again to be truly tapped in to the world and your mind and your spirituality as a woman you need to wake up to what it even means to be a woman, and that you are not built like a man is and its not your job to perform as one either. you need to find out what that means to you!!!!
p.s. dont mean this at all to come off terfy. i am not a TERF!!! transgender women are just as important in this conversation as cis women are, i am speaking from my own experiences as a cis woman though and do not know specifically how to speak on the transgender womans side of it because i have not lived that experience. i love trans women and would never mean for this to even seem in any shape or form as against them!!!! i should do more research and add on if i deem it appropriate for me to speak on because again, it is not my experience.
twas mentally preparing myself all day for my first therapy session through betterhelp (because no actual therapist takes my insurance)... just for it to actually be scheduled for the twentieth. fantasmic! now im crying because again, been mentally preparing myself for it all day and now theres a disturbance in the schedule i had set up for myself. at this point i dont even feel like going through with it and just cancelling the subscription!!!! but im not going to because i know i need to wait at least until after the first session.
fuck my fucking chungus life
no but actually other than this today has been a great day. i got up relatively later (10:30am) and made myself some coffee, then sat on the couch and wrote in my journal about science and spirituality until 11:40am. i did a yoga routine, then i took a shower, did all my self care stuff, then put on some makeup. i decided wow maybe i should eat because it was like 2:30pm at this point, so i walked to the the grocery store. i got some bell peppers, avocado, cheese, and deli meat then made a sandwich out of it at home. on the side i had some red pepper lentil snacks (iykyk theyre so goood) and a parfait w greek yogurt, blueberries, and some granola. it was great. i also watched glee while eating bc i am queer.
since then ive just been rotting in bed reading mandalorian fanfics on wattpad like any other normal person awaiting their FAKE THERAPY SESSION!!! it wasnt real... (btw was my fault i scheduled it for the 20th so it makes it worse yknow). it was all this fighting and stuff and im kinda reading it all relatively quickly bc im just like that... thinking to myself... so when is IT gonna happen yknow. it happened eventually but it just was some say my name say your mine bullshit. anyway. yesterday i read a 55 part kylo ren one and the only time they did IT, the author did the shit where it says the beginning, then cuts to the after. fuck off.... respectfully.
i wish ao3 had an app. which i mean i could use this one itself... tumblr has a few (hundred) goldmines. yesterday i got recommended a kylo ren one actually and im like... you already know me so well heh... (whole time its all connected and theyre just feeding me stuff from all my data thats all over the internet).

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when i showed my now ex boyfriend the secretary and we had to stop watching it because he didnt like it. sigh. now like obviously i didnt break up with him because he didnt like the secretary... duh, that was a whole nother ME issue. anyway, he just didnt fuck with it. and like yeah thats okay, but that movie. that movie man. i connect with it on a deeper level, and yes, i can recognize that it is freaked out and weird!!! but thats why i connnect with it!!! theyre both weird as fuck and its okay because they balance one another out. the only negative note about the movie i have is at the end where he makes her wait so long... i mean i get it but it kinda felt unnecessary and abusive. definitely a flaw in the writing!!!! (men) (but also what do i know?).
its like lee requires guidance and a strong sense of order in her life, while gray requires control. together they work because they have what the other needs to thrive!! it also approaches sex in a way that i had never been exposed to before because its psychosexual. I had been thinking on that level but not realizing it yknow. i never have thought of sex as taboo and also this sounds weird but i fear people over sexualize sex!!!!!!! its like society is trying to seell pleasure instead of fulling experiencing it. this is definitely because of men because for so long its been about THEM! i know some are dead set on pleasing their woman, cool, but as a society its been about men for the most part. because the suffering of a woman is most important. if it wasnt about men, sex wouldnt even be the main event!! it would be all about the emotional and physical journey to that point. but, no, its seemingly only important when a man finally gets his dick in someone. now, you might be thinking, well isnt lee suffering in the secretary? in my interpretation, no she is not. in fact, if we take a closer look at it, she is truly the one in control of the situation. she is the one who is gaining most of the pleasure and most of all, release she gets from what gray and her do together!
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more on the ariana grande twitter stan account at age 10. i had unlimited internet access, a shitty android, a passion for ariana grande, and a dream. i remember having to sneak around and be on twitter because obviously if my mom found out she would not have been happy... its not even like it was anything bad because it was pre- the porn infestation of twitter (or x *gross*). the only thing remotely bad was bts stans and ariana stans getting into fights and occasionally calling each other slurs as they probably still do, and then also this one thread...
it was this super popular ariana stan account and i lowk dont remember the user bc yes i was actually 10 and that was 8 years ago now!! anyway, she made a post talking about how she was doing stuff to herself (iykyk) and HER ACRYLIC BROKE OFF INSIDE HER!!!!!!!!!!! i was gagged because i hadn't done anything like that and honestly the idea of that made me never ever want to start doing it. even if i didnt have acrylics yknow... but anyways she made another post saying something along the lines of "vagina nail. who starts a conversation like that, nobody but i do." (an ariana grande lyric *I love you* replaced by *vagina nail*). P.S pretty sure ariana grande interacting with a few of the tweets from the thread soooo ariana knows about vagina nail too. p.s #2 BRO ON TWITTER CURRENTLY FINDING NPOTHING BUT PEOPLE TWEETING ABOUT THE VAGINA NAIL NOT THE REAL TWEET i feel like im goign crazy
the last time ive written anything other than about family, politics, or art on social media (which i rarely do anyway) is when i had an ariana grande stan account on twitter at the ripe age of 10. but, ive been thinking more and more about creating a blog to spread my true and earnest thoughts all over the internet for like 2 people to see. i dont know why it intrigues me so much to do this, i think maybe it comes from the fact it is easier to do this than actually journal? idk. i am literally just gonna be posting a bunch of bs from my brain!!!

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