The scheduling was definitely a mess. I didn't stick to my time blocking, but the first week is always wonky. I'll try again with the same blocks the second week.
The usual feelings of "I'll never have a brilliant idea again" flooding in at the beginning of projects. And why do I care about that?
Reminding my self to center mistakes, roll around in my process, center myself. Not get hung up on doing things right.
I find it hard to feel good about a process when I'm unclear on the priorities and expectations.
I try to respond a fair amount during discussion, but it doesn't seem to be the right responding based on the nonverbal feedback. Should I ask more questions or posit more "I think" statements? Should I keep things brief or detailed? What does it mean when I feel like I can't respond as myself?
The longer conversations go, the deeper they get. But you've got to start somewhere and it is important to get the beginning thoughts and details out of the way.
I feel there are some things I can't get away with sayingâcertain questioning of the teacher or of a premise. I'm glad I have some nonwhite, nonmale classmates that speak up.