“How bad even is it outside?” You ask him and he looks at you as he unbuttons his shirt. “It's horrible! I accidentally walked in a large puddle, then I got soaked from my knees down I'm not very happy with it.” He sighs and finally takes his shirt off. And turns the shower on to the hottest it could be and steps in. He hums in relief and you follow in shortly after him and flinch at how hot it is. “How hot did you set it!?”

“All the way I'm cold” he continues to hum in pleasure,

“Whatever.” You mumble and he looks over at you. “Can I wash your hair?” He asks and you nod, he grabs a shampoo bottle and starts to wash your scalp.

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You sat and dried his hair off with a hair dryer and he sat in content the whole time. He didn't mind you always doing this stuff for him, he found it cute. “So so! I saw a cat when I walked home and it was trying to follow me into the house! Isn't that crazy!” You say and he looks back at you skeptical, “you wanted the cat didn't you?” He chuckles then turns back, “Nooo! Maybe.. But the cat was so cute it kept meowing and wanting pets!” You say and you finish drying his hair off and he stands up. “I'm tired..” he yawns and hugs your waist. “Did so much work today..” he mumbles, you can tell he is ready for bed. “I mean you barely have been sleeping. I heard you up last night at like 3am.” He mumbles something you can barely understand and you pat his back. “Come on, let's go.” He let's go of you and walks behind you to the bedroom

You reach the bedroom and you sit in the middle of the bed as you watch Toji undress and into clean clothes. You always like watching him undress and seeing him stripped down to his boxers. He knows you stare but he simply could care less he likes it when you do.

He changes into a pair of sweatpants and a tanktop before hopping on the bed next to you and then laying his head on your lap. You instinctively start to play with his hair and he grunts softly and you smile. “How was your day Toji?” You continue to play with his hair and he turns over laying down on his back now. “Decent.” Is all he says before closing his eyes. “Tojii” you whine and he opens his eyes again. “What doll.” He mumbles, “You look like you're gonna fall asleep.” You brush his hair softly out of his face so you could see it better, “Want me to order food? I don't want to cook.” Asking him and he finally sits up and you lean on him grabbing onto his arm. 

You love to be clingy around him he doesn't mind it, especially in public. He hates guys staring at what's his. “Sure, go ahead.” He yawns and you grab your phone out of your pocket and start to hum to yourself. Toji listens to your humming. It's like a lullaby to fall asleep but he tries not to close his eyes for longer than blinking. He knows one way that could wake him, he leans down looking at you as you are scrolling on your phone. “What baby?” You look up and he immediately pulls you into a kiss. He keeps pulling the kiss in deeper and deeper and you can't quite seem to get free from his grasp. His hands move on your waist then slowly dip down to the hem of your top. His lips eventually make it off to catch your breath. “T-toji.. i still hav-” He then shuts you up with another kiss. He feels less tired now.

You try not to move too much on the bed, not to wake him. He needs rest, tons of it. But you think to yourself, you could make him some breakfast. You contemplate and think for a second but ultimately decide to get up and make him food and not to be loud. You move out of bed carefully and find your robe hanging up on the closet door and tie it around you and walk out of the bedroom closing the door gently. You walk to the kitchen and find some pans to cook some eggs and maybe pancakes, rummaging in the fridge you found the eggs and some sausage. “This will do, don't have to be fancy.” You set the carton of eggs and package of sausage on the counter before heating up the pan.

You hum softly to yourself and start cooking, not paying attention to the sounds around you before you feel a looming presence by you and then grabbing your waist pulling you close to him. “Why did you leave me.. in bed alone.” He says almost whining like a child, he nests his head on your neck and gives it a kiss around all the hickeys and bites he left last night on you. “Nanami… you should still be sleeping baby.” You hum softly, cracking another egg in the pan. “But you left me alone.. can't sleep alone.” He grumbles holding you tightly, he is extremely clingy this morning typically he is never like this but when he is you find it adorable.

“I know.. im sorry” you reassure him and he sniffs your neck and closes his eyes like he is about to fall back asleep. “Baby go back to bed..” You move from the stove and look down at him on your shoulder. “Hmm” he mumbles and you shake your head in amusement, “never seen you so needy.” You giggle and he moves from you and finds a chair to sit in and pulls it up besides you.

Looking over at him he is just in pajama pants he probably found on the floor. His hair is so messy and his chest is littered in small red marks, he looks so beautiful like this not a care in the world what he looks like nor how he is acting. “After breakfast can we go back to bed..” he mumbles once again looking up at you as you finish cooking off the food. You move to the coffee pot and fill it up real quick with water to brew some coffee. “How about.. we clean up the bedroom.. them sheets gotta be ready for a wash after last night.” You tell him and he blushes faintly and looks away from you. “Perhaps.. I am just feeling lazy today.” He puts his hand over his face and leans back into the chair as you walk back over to the stove plating the food. “You never feel lazy this is a shocker.” You tease him and he scoffs, “I know.. my hips hurt.” He groans and looks at you once more.

“I mean you did do good last night. My legs hurt but its a given.” You move over and put the food on the table and nanami tilts his head back to see the food on the table. You walk past him and ruffle his hair “I love you ken” you smile and he as well smiles “I love you too, y/n.”

Something changed when you left the apartment. You came back to everything turned off, it felt quiet in a bad way. You went out just for some basic groceries to cook Choso something for dinner. He didn't greet you when you arrived nor did his presence even feel tangible. 

"Choso-- I'm home."

You call out his name a few times he doesn't answer. This gets your head spinning in 180 circles continuously, you barely have checked the rooms before you start thinking the worst. ‘What if he left me?’ ‘What if he's dead’ filled with so many what ifs that your head could just spin right off. You always knew Choso sometimes struggled. He isn't sometimes emotionally there so you help him regulate emotions.

You call out his name a few times he doesn't answer. This gets your head spinning in 180 circles continuously, you barely have checked the rooms before you start thinking the worst. ‘What if he left me?’ ‘What if he's dead’ filled with so many what ifs that your head could just spin right off. You always knew Choso sometimes struggled. He isn't sometimes emotionally there so you help him regulate emotions.

He's always been emotional with things especially with his brothers and you. He is overprotective at times as well you feel like the one getting babied. Always treating a small scrape like the biggest thing in the world. You always find it cute but overbearing at times. He's always very close to you in public not wanting to lose you but also to make sure others knew you had a boyfriend. Choso loves you unconditionally, he never wants to let you go.

But for some reason he felt closed off recently that's what led to your recent thoughts flooding your mind. He wasn't clingy like how he was, nor asking stupid questions. He just sat in a chair either writing in a notebook or just sleeping. He was sleeping a ton which also made you think he could've just been sleeping. He could be, that's what you are praying and hoping he's doing.

You walk to the bedroom and the door is closed, you open it slowly to see if he would say anything if he was awake. You peak your head around. He's sitting on the edge of the bed just looking down. His hands seem to be in his lap, he looks so dead. You stand in the doorway for a minute your face is starting to grow concerned, the door still open to see if he would turn around or say anything. Not a single word escaped his mouth nor a movement. He felt frozen in place, and you're afraid to see the front of him. You want to utter some words, but the silence is so thick it's hard to even say anything without it disturbing something. Moving in the bedroom felt thick like trying to walk with honey on the floor. It's like you're shutting down because you cant move, cant speak to possibly see what is wrong with Choso. You could completely but, disturbing his peace is not something you want to do. But if his safety is in danger, you have to break that barrier.

“Choso.” You say in an assertive tone wanting a clear response from him, a movement or anything could be amazing. He didn't move. “Cho..” You start to move. It felt weird but you needed to see him, and you moved and saw red, that's all you saw. “C-choso..?” You mutter trying to remain calm. His head slowly turns to yours, “I'm sorry.” Is all he says, you can't take it anymore and jump straight into him holding him as tightly as possible. “Why didn't you talk to me dammit! Choso!” You start to sob into his shoulder and he just lets you, he doesn't respond, he doesn't do anything. Just lets you hold him, he feels remorse completely, just he doesn't know how to process what he just did to himself. He never had done it, but he just wanted to see how it felt. “Talk to me please!! Please.. say something” he just rubs your back softly, he can't form words but he will have to force himself at some point. You let go of him and immediately go down to his arm, you examine all the cuts on his arms, some are frantic, some are genuine deep cuts. 

“Choso..” You look up at his face from where you are sitting and he just starts sobbing. “S-sorry.. j-just.. i-” he chokes on his own breath and you pull him in closer and pat his back to calm him down. He feels guilty, he was so scared to even say anything to you, that it built up to this. He felt like he was drowning in thought, he didn't want to burden you with his problems.

He only wanted to focus on you, and make sure you're okay before him. “Baby, it's okay just.. let me clean you up.” You sniffle and get up walking out of the bedroom to the bathroom, Choso remains sitting on the bed, once you return with the medical stuff he looks at you his eyes are red very red. “A-are you mad at m-me…” He stutters still slightly crying, “No Cho im not, it happens just next time talk to me okay? I feel like shit because I couldn't help you.” You tell him and he nods, you start to clean the cuts and it stings slightly on his skin, he moves slightly in discomfort but he deals with it. “Im.. sorry.” He says it again, your chest feels heavy with guilt and sadness, it covers you like a weighted blanket. But you continue to help him and start to bandage up his arm. He's still lightly sobbing he can't seem to stop the tears no matter how much he tries. “I love you, Choso..” you hug his waist from in-between his legs he smiles lightly at the action and puts his hands on your back. “I love you too…” 

“Want me to cook dinner now.. you can watch me.” You ask him and tilt your head up, your face is full of affection and his face is still red and puffy from crying. “S-sure.. I haven't eaten today yet.” He murmurs and you nod standing up and dragging Choso up off the bed, he allows you to do so and you walk to the kitchen with him behind you. 

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As you cook he is clinging onto you. Holding onto your waist from your back never letting go. “You're clingy today..” you giggle and smile, he buries his face in the crook of your neck then he kisses it. 

Cult!Leader Suguru - Who wants you to worship him like a god.

Cult!Leader Suguru - Who wants you all to himself. He hates when you talk to other men.

Cult!Leader Suguru - Who only allows you outside when he is with you. He doesn't want anything to happen to you. 

Cult!Leader Suguru - Who is always so loving and doting when he is alone with you. When he's done with cult activities for the day he will always want to be close with you.

Cult!Leader Suguru - Who is calm and reserved during arguments. That's when you have them, which is very rare. He always communicates his feelings.

Cult!Leader Suguru - Who is always gentle with you and never wants to be rough. He hates when he hurts you even in the slightest.

Cult!Leader Suguru - Who when he is away he will call you every night to make sure you're okay. And to hear your voice, being around monkeys gets him irritated so your voice calms him down. 

Cult!Leader Suguru - Who has his phone lockscreen set to a picture of you, he took it without you realizing it. But he loves to look at it after meetings especially if he has a long day.

Cult!Leader Suguru - Who has his own way of always making you stay. He knows how to get into your head.

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Cult!Leader Suguru - Who is always so loving during sex. Making sure to worship you in many ways.

Cult!Leader Suguru - Who is very rarely rough during sex. Only ever rough if some monkeys pissed him off that day and needed relief. But even then he tends to be gentle.

Cult!Leader Suguru - Always saying loving words during sex. He always makes sure you're okay and not to overwhelm you.

Cult!Leader Suguru - Who hates when he has gone too far. He prioritizes your comfort before his own.

Cult!Leader Suguru - Who only ever has sex when it's right. He won't just have sex randomly. He wants a reason to have it.

Cult!Leader Suguru - Who is extensive with his aftercare. He needs to make sure your cared for after, making sure you're bathed and so on.