and lost boys like me, are free

soooo i’m alive? but uh yeah, got a new blog still working on transferring muses, but i’d be down for some plots here. tbh i’m super down for anything smutty, i’d love to sharpen my rusty angst skills as well. like this & i’ll come plot with you.

losa was too dazed to know how to respond. her head was spinning, eyes slightly out of focus. everything in her was tingling from her forehead to her lips, to the tips of places she didn’t often thing about. an airy giggle left her lips as she felt hands on her cheeks and eyes focused back on the beautiful girl in front of her...who was kissing him and petite arms wrapped around her waist so she could shuffle closer as they kissed. a tiny whimper left her lips as a particularly violent jolt of foreign pleasure swept through her body, starling her enough to pull away. blushing immediately, soft apologizes bubbled from her lips and large doe eyes grew wide with fear that she’d messed this all up. “....please don’t go.”

she could tell he was angry, it was never really hard with braxton, especially not for her. after all, it would feel like almost a sham to say he was her best friend, if she couldn’t read his moods and body language. tears were still trickling down her cheeks as she sought some sort of comfort in his arms but her walls were still up, her back was tense and she let out a bitter sigh. “if you ever find you, i’m never gonna find out, the changes of me...remembering anything are slim to none. there isn’t shit to be done and i...” her voice closed off and she just leaned into his grip again, shaking with a whirlwind of emotions and no way to know how to weather the storm. the only relief was she knew she dind’t have to do it alone. “i love you, brax.” the words were whispered and hoarse but she meant them. whether or not she meant to say them out loud? that’s a whole other story. 

ro couldn’t help the giggle that left her at bubbles’ brave act, knowing better by the sweet stammer that left her lips. blushing just slightly at her own thoughts, she looked away and stretched a little closing her eyes for a second. only to open them as the other femme is running over, a soft smile crossing her lips as she patted the bed next to her. “c’mere, little one. you can always sleep here and it’s okay to be scared. i used to be scared of thunderstorms too.”

robyn wasn’t sure what she was going to do, the groan that left his lips only serving to make her smile against his skin, small hands gripping on to the back of his shirt. normally, she wouldn’t go this far but brax was too much of a softie to ever hurt her and as much as she liked to put on a distrustful facade, she knew braxton actually cared about her well being and happiness. she cuddled up against him, feeling her heart drop a bit at his comment and the feeling only worsened with his continued questioning. her eyes watered again and it took her a second to realize that her nails were digging through his shirt and her breathing was fast but once she did, it was like you could see the walls go back up and her voice went soft and dead. eyes were closed as she spoke, face twisted between an emotionless void & a grimace. “someone...long story short, i woke up somewhere i didn’t go naked and alone. there were condoms in a trash can and i still can’t remember that night. nothing.” robyn shook her head, trying not to think too hard about all of the things bubbling under the surface and buried her face in his chest as her shoulders finally broke with sobs. “i don’t...i can’t sleep if i’m not with you cause i wake up alone and i get so scared that i won’t be where i remember.” the words were half muffled but you could see her shoulders sag with exhaustion.

it was like something was ignited in her chest as the gasp slipped through the air, smiling against the skin her lips were pressed to. it was a moment before losa pulled away and she did with a small stifled smile, the corner of her bottom lip tucked behind her teeth. “nik.” rosy lips said the name with such care, a certain inexplicable tenderness and she smiled again, brown eyes bright. she didn’t think about taking a first step but she did. it wasn’t like her. “i...” the words trailed off and she leaned up, hand still grasping hers as she pressed the softest kiss to her lips. her breathing hitched, not expecting to feel a spark and then just warmth, everywhere. it was almost overwhelming as she rocked back onto flat feet, a burning red blush flooding her cheeks.

adrian wasn’t exactly sure to do when he heard a femme voice call out for a marcus but after a second or two, he realized that might be the name tonio gives out. his brother was something he’d never quite understand. the lack of empathy/remorse was concerning and that was coming from him. however, hazel eyes widened exponentially at her next shouted words and at that point ade rushed to the door, opening it and then his heart flipped. “he’s out somewhere, didn’t want to tell me much.” the words were quiet and the older male didn’t know what to say for a second before extending his hand. “c’mon, you and peanut can hang out inside with me.” the nickname for the child, was unexpected and adrian didn’t even see it coming himself. after all, he wasn’t the biggest fan of kids. 

his heart did flips as carter sighed and the more the other male as around, the softer nix’s heart had become. there was almost no one in his life that came close to how he felt about bones. turquoise eyes seemed to sparkle for a second as he looked at the other and a soft chuckle left his lips. shaking his head, nix reached out to brush his fingers against carter’s cheek. “well, then we’re even because you mean everything to me.” and his words were true, a fact that made some of his hairs stand on end and his skin tingle but phoenix also knew it was the truth. looking at carter, his main urge was to wrap him in a hug and never let go but another part of nix, perhaps the part hidden by the sparkle, wanted nothing more than to lean in and kiss the other.