aara

romanticise your life, take pretty pictures, feel like the main character, light up a candle, read books, go for a walk, dance to your favourite music, buy yourself presents, do whatever you want, be happy - this is your life, don’t let anyone take it from you

the only fear that pushes me to heal every cell of my body is - i am afraid to turn out like my father. i am afraid to be unaware of hurting someone and using my wounds to defend my actions; the fear of being so lost and tangled in my own self to not notice how my future kids would be affected by my behaviour; to be so lonely and misunderstood that i put on an armor not to just protect myself, but use it to hurt others as well - so that my misery feels less to me. i am afraid to be someone who would be so self-centred, to be so unaware about my loved ones - that i would do anything but admit my wrong-doings and hold myself accountable for it.

feels like too many people have forgotten that everyone on earth also has feelings and interior lives and experiences and are themselves entire universes that exist beyond the current and fleeting moment

the novelty of having pets really does never wear off; i've had my cat for ten years and i still look at him strolling around like can you believe this. a cat. is everyone seeing this. he's alive he has bones and all. unbelievable.

somewhere between then and now, my gel polish became bare nails, abercrombie turned into moms hand-me-downs, crackers became everything bagels, my ipod nano turned into spotify, my pin straight hair went back to natural waves, my large friend group became few and far between, my rigidity turned into self compassion, my grandmother became my best friend, a stranger turned into my future husband. and somewhere between all of it, i became me.

craving the type of cuddles where it leads to soft exchanges of kisses and sweet words of affirmation and reassurance, where quiet little giggles can be heard only by the two of us in between kisses

delete every app that makes you hate your life, cut off people who don't treat you as you deserve, start to organize your life, take a break from social media everytime you feel like it, wake up early in the morning and listen to music, make a cup of tea while reading a book, only talk to people who make you love yourself, stop giving everyone the love that you should be giving to yourself. life is good and beautiful if you only know where to look.

somewhere between then and now, ariana grande became taylor swift, hanging out with friends all the time became reading, posting everything on my story became writing, talking behind peoples backs became meditating, crying every night became journaling, the vampire diaries became emma chamberlain and somewhere in between, i learned to love myself and the life i’ve been given. 💌

let love in. believe compliments. be vulnerable and soft-hearted. tell people you love that you love them. see beauty in everyday things. live life like you're in a movie. don't be afraid to begin again.

at the end of the day, you’re your own best friend who loves you the most. she brushes my hair for me. she wipes my tears when i cry. she makes me a snack when i’m hungry. she rolls me a joint when i’ve had a long day. she reads for me to make me more knowledgeable. she picks me flowers and put it in my hair. she puts together cute lil outfits for me. she loves me and i love her.

chase atlantic, the moon, night drives, spotify, pinterest, coffee and the weeknd