BLUE Tomorrow! Oink :P

Summer’s here.

Maybe he’s here.

Years have past.

Years, I have lost.

Feelings that were kept

Feelings that want to leap

Maybe I'm ready

Maybe I'm not

Gone were those sadness

You are the most “you” when you’re with your friends.

The question is, “Are they truly your friends? Or some acquaintance you have known, to endure for company?”.

We’re now on our way back to Manila from a three days, two night stay at Baler. Sadly, I have all this unconsented feelings towards the “friends” I’ve been with.

I self-loathe, lose confidence and build and break my walls everytime I try to understand the hate I feel when I’m with them. It started with all these hurtful jokes, from physical aspects to the stuff I have like a “low quality” bags, monopod/tripod and whatnot which is probably is but that doesn’t mean they can just define you by what you have.

I am deeply saddened by this. I want to keep them for a long time but really, I have to take care of myself too, I can’t be hating myself everytime I’m with them. It may even be necessary to cut them off. Why would I stay in an unhealthy reltationship on which I’m being affected negatively.