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i’m randomly missing the old tumblr. we’re all grown now & super focused na sa life so

whenever i log back into this app, i always get this sudden surge of nostalgia. in a way that reminds me of how much i’ve grown and how long it has been since i genuinely felt that kind of joy again. the kind where you wake up excited because you have something to look forward to, something to be curious about, or simply because you know you’ll reconnect with people who somehow made you feel something

pero at the same time, this app also brings back a looot of things i badly wish i could forget. memories tied to regret, shame, guilt, and the realization that i let certain people into my life when i probably shouldn’t have. there are so many people i deeply regret opening up to.

i truly hope i learn to acknowledge and work on mine first before turning that attention elsewhere. i want to learn to be the bigger person, not with the feeling that my ego has been bruised but by embodying humility and staying grounded in kindness, respect, and love for myself and others as well.