numetal kid

My betta and me .

I feel like whenever I talk to someone, they see a particular version of me, but not *me.* Like, sometimes my personas are more clingy, while other times they're more quiet and distant. But none of them are how I see myself. Even in private it doesn't feel like I get to see my regular self.

It's more like I'm trapped in my own body, and in private, I can feel the emptiness of my soul searching for myself, only presenting as dull and lifeless without something to reflect off of.

I don't have identity issues, either. I know who I am and don't think I struggle with identifying myself. But I don't know why I feel like this, I just do.

Happy Holidays! I hope you all get to eat an endless amount of good food like your stomach is a blackhole!