Allie 💗

wanna kill anyone thats ever touched her

why does wanting to be loved sometimes feel so embarrassingly pathetic?

She doesn't want sex all the time. Sometimes she just craves pain to calm her demons. Sometimes it's all about grabbing her hair and pulling it hard to remind her that she belong to me. Sometimes it's just a hand around the neck to remind her to focus on breath and slow down. Sometime it's just pinning down the hand and showing you are safe with me. Sometimes it's just tight slaps around her ass and titts to reboot her overwhelmed mental system.

Yes! I have talked about this before! People can very much just have bdsm in the bedroom as a way to cum harder, that is ok. For those that need it on a deeper level, the sex is a side note to the dynamic! The dynamic itself is what you need. Whether that is to control to whatever degree, or be controlled to whatever degree. It’s about being the rock they need on those hard days (I’m leaving what role the rock is ambiguous because a sub is the Dom’s rock just as much as the Dom is to the sub). The dynamic is to bring peace and stability. To give each other a way to vent, to be confidant, to feel complete. A real bdsm dynamic is far deeper than just orgasms. If you think of bdsm and only imagine the kinds of orgasms you might have, you aren’t ready for a “real” bdsm dynamic.

If the magic school bus could drive around my brain and figure out where all the serotonin went that would be greeeaaattttt

really annoying to have no energy no matter how much sleep you get

i’m very self aware. which unfortunately hasn’t solved anything