no

We walk alone through this world, but if we’re lucky, we have a moment of belonging to something, to someone, that sustains us through a lifetime of loneliness.

I fell in love with your kind of crazy. I do not know how or when that happened, I am not sure if I understand why, I just know I woke up one day and my demons were so preoccupied with the madness of you, that they did not have the time nor the energy to make a mess out of my insides.

you left a home for a house. when you wonder why her floorboards creek and wind seeps through unused sheets, remember it wasnt me who locked you out. i kept my candle burning. my light was always on.

Maybe I should be afraid of losing you, maybe I should drown myself in doubt and worry, but I can’t. Everything in me is telling me that this hope and this trust will prevail. Letting go of this fear is liberating, I am finally, truly free.

1. I can’t shut up about you. If someone stopped me in the street and asked what I was thinking about, your name would spill out more easily than any of my anxieties. 2. I swear to God, every time I listen to a good song you’re the first person I want to tell. Every song has you in it. Every song is about you now. 3. Let’s mix each other’s laundry. If I find your shirt and you get my sweater, we can take each other out of our own clothes. 4. When you call me babe, and your voice is still a little sleepy, I swear to fucking god my heart feels it. I feel it behind my eyes, and sometimes even in my fingertips. The love spreads, you know? 5. Let’s stay up till 3 am and make ourselves pasta we can eat out of the bowl while we sit on the kitchen counter and talk for hours. We can take pictures of the sunrise through the window while we laugh our six a.m. laugh, because it’s early and we’re a little dizzy with love.

When you love someone, you say their name different. Like it’s safe inside your mouth.

The past beats inside me like a second heart.