There has to be something wrong with me, right?
I get that things happened, and I'm so proud she's finding more of herself, but it hurts so much.
I think I'm just not fit for love at this point.
I love this girl. Have loved her since we started getting closer, but no joke, this is the SECOND time someone has found out that they were aroace while I liked them. This one hurts so much more, though, because we were dating.
I was scared to tell her because I just got out of a bad relationship a month before and this only lasted not even a full month. Like genuinely one week away. I'm actually so pissed because I thought it was perfect this time because we wanted the same things, but it hurts.
I am a month clean as of this month, but I don't think I can keep it up. The only thing stopping me from doing anything rn is the fact I have to coach kids and I don't want to explain what's on my arm. I'm also still here because I don't want to be the reason my little 8 and Unders have to learn what suicide is, plus I don't want all that money I spent on MCR to go to waste because they're the reason I even made it past Freshman year.















