Nebula Caelestia Noctis

THE SABOTAGE 😩

I just decided to take a look at what was in my pencil case after a long while and I discovered that my most favorite mechanical pencil of all time was BROKEN. A Pentel GraphGear 1000 0.4mm, the only one of its kind in my possession… I’m not exactly in the position to buy a new one either now…

+++Story time…

So I just had a birthday almost two weeks ago and I asked for an ice cream cake. It was a pretty aquatic blue and purple mermaid themed yellow sheet cake.

Unusually, my family hardly wanted any cake at the small gathering aside from pizza. Knowing how i hated food waste, I had one or two slices of cake a day with a little gingerbread ice cream as a topping…until earlier this week…

My face had slight redness in the shape of a butterfly across my cheeks as well as redness on my forehead and chin that was itchy, painful and burning. Also went to my scalp and I shed a little hair. I felt widespread joint pain, body aches and fatigue worse than my usual. Apparently my immune system was like “WTF are you doing???” I thought it was allergies or my skin care routine but I’ve never had allergic reactions like that and it wouldn’t have been delayed for a week. 🤷

I looked up a condition regarding “difficulty with perception of color” and eventually I found “anomalous trichromacy”. It’s more like I can see a wide range of colors but there’s sometimes a glitch or an “anomaly” that makes certain colors appear different, or more muted, (not actually full on color blindness).

This model I found online and cropped features a condition called “tritanomaly” but I feel like it is pretty accurate to what I experience.

When I look at a particular part of a wide color spectrum, the colors in my peripheral area start to look muted, or in other words, both the default example and the representation of the condition start to look the same.

So that likely explains my difficulty with coloring my art and digitally in this case I’d adjust brightness and saturation a zillion times before settling with something “decent”. Could also be why I prefer only lines and value or if I do color, it’s solid color, sometimes with accents or gradients.