taylor swift was my top artist on spotify. i have 58 spotify playlists and she is in all of them. so are you, because i have never gotten over anything in my life. after all, i am exactly like other girls. i give people my heart, and then i let them break it. i drown out my sorrows in 58 playlists. sometimes they're not enough, so i make more. in my head, they're named after you. i scroll through pinterest to chose every cover picture, and then i end up comparing myself to the girls on my feed instead. sometimes i get increasingly aware that i'm not at all like other girls. then i remind myself that all the other girls think the same. maybe that's why we're alike. we traded friendship bracelets, and i have them framed. i keep them, like i keep everything, because i have never gotten over anything in my life. sometimes i wear them and i make them match my outfits. my boots are new, did you notice? i got them for my birthday. the color is pretty but they remind me that i'm getting older and i'm supposed to know what to do with my life next. i don't like thinking about it. do you want to listen to music instead? i have 58 playlists. no, not that one, i just made it for my crush, but i don't think she likes it. or me. but that other one is good to drown out the thoughts. there's a lot of taylor swift, but you probably expected it, because i'm exactly like other girls. i have a whole playlist of love songs and no one to dedicate it to. i shouldn't have said that, but it's alright. or maybe it's not, i cry about that sometimes, but i think all girls do. i shouldn't have said that either, i think. maybe i'll just run away. i always wanted to run away. i always wanted to live in a big city somewhere, but i think deep in the woods could work as well. fantasy books make it sound fun, at least, and i love fantasy books. it's not just because i'm exactly like other girls. real life just has less magic. less romance, too, but i don't wanna go back to that. i don't wanna go back to anything. i want to stay home and curl up under a blacket and watch a christmas movie. i want to eat chocolate and scroll mindlessly through tik tok. i want to delete all of my 58 playlists so i never think about the past, but i can't, because i have never gotten over anything in my life. i don't want to think about the past, but i also don't want to think about the future. i don't really want to do anything. i think i'm just gonna listen to taylor swift. she was my top artist on spotify, did you know? after all, i am exactly like other girls.
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