Jacquelyn

My heart feels heavy

Oh

You assume the worst about me and never let me correct miscommunication or mistakes. You assumed i wouldnt talk to you about why i was feeling depressed. That i only told you as an excuse or for some special attention. I told you because i became desperate to talk about it. I recognized my spiraling thoughts and actions. I needed a friend to talk to about that. I still do. But everyone either doesnt understand or thinks there is some quick easy way for me to stop feeling this way and im just being stubborn and stupid. Im sorry for what it sounded like i was saying but you never gave me a chance to explain any of it or apologize. You were once my best friend who listened and talked me through some really hard times. You were also the man that loved me and wanted nothing but happiness for me. Now i just wanted you to be a friend who can relate and listen to me. I need that.

Im never given the chance to explain myself or make up for any of my asshole moves

I wish i knew if you were ok