My Second Chance

I saw on Facebook that Liam's family posted a picture or two with a caption or something depicting him with the name Liam. Not anything else for a name.

I don't know how things are going. I really don't. I separated myself completely. I don't ask others about him, or search his blogs, or creep his social networks even though all would be admittedly incredibly easy. I am just not interested in doing it to myself. Not interested in hunting down information that could create any kind of emotional stress to myself.

I hope that the picture(s) are a sign that they do use the name Liam now though. That would be really exciting, and I feel like Liam would be happy about it which is good. Though I am not really in any place to say that. 

I received a snap chat from him today as well.

I am upset with everything that has happened.

I still want to be able to recognize these positive things though, but I do not want to give him or anyone the idea that I am 'over it' or that I am no longer upset.

I am still upset. I am still hurt.

I don't want to talk about it except for what I have said. So please don't ask.

I just wanted to say this. I don't know if it is good or bad. Nice or mean. Helpful or destructive.