LIKE A PRODIGAL

when someone uses the word “but,” whatever comes after the but is clearly weighted more than what comes before it.   (hence why it’s a dick move to say something like  i’m sorry that happened but really it shouldn’t have been a big deal   or  it’s so popular in “Feelsy” breakups for someone to say   i love you but that just... isn’t enough.   this isn’t a concept that i should have to explain further.) 

if go you watch the scene itself,   you’ll find that cameron’s BUT  somewhere in there  voiceover begins while chase is still on screen.   which, yes, the voiceover happens in transitioning between every character in order to make the scene feel smoother but (lol see what i did there)  cameron !!!!  is the only one who comes in on a conjunction !!!    therefore, cameron’s line seems to be a continuation of chase’s !!!   instead of either of them getting to have a complete thought (like literally every single other character gets) theirs are inherently connected. 

(cameron fans should be mad about this as well, btw, because this also means that she doesn’t get to have her own complete thought.   we never get to know what presumably negative criticism she brought to the table that she was negating.  product of the show loving to display them as a package deal even after they finally got the closure that severed that tie.   which is just stinking bullshit.) 

anyway, until cameron pops in, chase is the only character to have said a “negative” comment about house without qualifying it with a positive.   until cameron steps in with her statement about his capacity for love :) 

anyway, i get that we need all of the characters to be romanticizing house in some way in order to make wilson’s divergence from his notes more profound and all that.    i get it.   i’ll even buy it.   but that doesn’t mean that chase’s line couldn’t have been like stacy’s  (he was a trying boyfriend, but i never stopped loving him)  or something.   anything.  

i’d take a:  “he wasn’t always easy to deal with.   but he was always an honor to work for.”     or a  “he wasn’t always easy to deal with.   but i wouldn’t trade a single day.”   or a   “he wasn’t always easy to deal with.  but neither is knowing he’s gone.”

(or personally, i headcanon very strongly that at some point while he was up there, chase defaulted to some cheesy fucking bible quote because he still defaults to that catholic indoctrination in times of trouble.  they could’ve pulled something about gratefulness to parallel it to thirteen’s quote or something.) 

god knows, chase spent half of his time in the show romanticizing the shit out of house and being desperate for affirmation and the other half  seeing through house’s bullshit with clarity unlike most.   but instead of capitalizing on The Perfect opportunity to highlight both of those dynamics.........

4.      we  both  have  an  intensely  catholic  background  that  we’ve  shed  in  a  lot  of  obvious  ways .      but  whenever  someone  around  us  says  something  about  scripture  or  doctrine  that  just   isn’t  right ,    we’ll  both  be  found  correcting  them .       and  if  we  ever  end  up  at  mass ,     you’ll  catch  us  both  receiving  communion  because  we  just .  .  .     can’t  bring  ourselves  to  deny .

5.      we  both  drink  alcohol  a  lot  but  have  maintained  a  fairly  healthy   relationship  to  it ,     with  some  periods  of  our  lives  being  the  exception .      not  alcoholics  though .

FIVE  DIFFERENCES :

1.      even  though  we  both  love  kids ,    he  actually  wants  to  be  a  parent  and  i  definitely  don’t .

2.      he prefers  warm  weather  and  i  am  definitively  a  fall  and  winter  baby .

3.      at  the  end  of  the   day ,      we  exist  on  different  sides  of  that  gryffindor / slytherin  line ;     him  being  the  gryffindor  and  myself  being  the  slytherin ,     if  that  wasn’t   already  abundantly  clear .

4.      doctor    vs .     high  school  english  teacher .     lmao .