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I never thought one day I’d have to

He’s the first to hold my hands when wave rises

Always.

Always there to hold me when salty water reaches my lungs

I never learned to swim

Never thought water would rise on shore

Never thought my voice would break and shatter like glass cutting my vocals

And salty tears only burns my scars

But the unthinkable happened

Water roamed my body but this time no hands came to the rescue

But I never reached

I was hanged by the thought that maybe everything was back to normal

But it wasn’t it never was

Each time I was almost there

I got hit by the fact the heart wrenching fact that you’re gone

I zone out and remember

Each time you found out something

Each time you made me laugh even when you were teasing me

But now all I have left are photos to look at

Words I said cut my flesh more than a knife could ever do

Putting down buildings and putting up walls

Regrets I didn’t regret

Regrets murdering every incept of worth

Slaughtering my insides

Killing my pride

And words I wish I said

Cutting my vocal cords longing to be let out

But I’m still living in the past

In the days I didn’t even have a clue what grief was

In the days I didn’t even have a clue how awful the end was

I thought the hero would save the day ,everyone will continue to live thier lives

Which everyone eventually did

Every light shone up again

And the world continued its system

Except for a house

Behind those standing tall walls

They keep erupting burning my vocals

If I let it slip would it melt everything beside me ?

They’re poisonous to everyone around me

My stomach walls is corroded

Stomach once filled with butterflies now filled with sorrows and pain

Acids that are eating my guts

My emotions and my feelings