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beautiful women called You Don't Want to be Alive and You're Too Scared to Die calling📲 me in my head

when I was 9 I really wanted to learn ballet but I was slightly overweight AND hit early puberty double homicide so I was kinda self conscious about being bigger than all the other kids and yhen self conscious that most people start at a younger age and now I'm 10 years older and I still want to do ballet and I'm upset I don't have early experience. and if I let that stop me now I will have the same regret in 10 years

I remember 7th grade science fair like it was yesterday Lowkey pathetic but. I remember realizing I was getting more hugs than usual so I decided to count them and then post on my story about getting a record and the next day of the science fair (it was over 2 days) I got 100 hugs aaawwwww like a billion of them were from this one girl who i desperately wanted to think I was cool I miss her #reminiscing

missing someone will have u associating them with the dumbest things Bruh WDYM I'm sad thinking about high Fives because we used to high five a lot GET OUT OF MY HEADDDDD THIS IS STUPID

Actually I think any type of blonde will be deeply unflattering onme but this is like my one chance to Bleach my hair and blondes have more fun so it's ok

realizing everyday I fluctuate between I Don't Want To Speak to Anyone and I Need Every Friend in the World because I don't leave my house.... Leaving my house made me realise the latter is what's true I lowkey need friends

old age of nineteen feeling peer pressured to enjoy roblox 😭😭😭😭😭

I'm sooo soo so talkative to a fault this has been true since childhood. And I wasn't a witty or a funny kid in any way so it wasn't endearing unless u were meeting me for the first time ever when I was in the 6th grade I tried to keep a written reminder to Talk Less on me for like. Less than a week. didn't work. I think this is just who I am 😊❤

this is really bad but strangers don't exist in my book ur either a potential new friend,, or alr a friend if ur speaking to me for the second time ever, or The Killer and I'm horrified of you 🤹‍♀️

Ive been I think derealised since the age of 5 and I thought this was how everybody lived til I discovered otherwise in the 7tb grade and it's genyonely. Destroying my life. Because I can't fathom any consequences I can't work towards my future I can't do anything becauss my body doesn't process that this isn't all one big nightmare I'll wake up from eventually. I don't feel any sense of urgency until the gun is pointed right at my head. Even then I think. I just need to wake up. Its not real its not real well it is and I know that it is but. I don't feel it. And trying to Reattach to the real world is so painful I feel insane actually

the thought of uni is genyinely making me sick to my stomach can't I just live in my maladaptive daydream where I'm a successful top student w so many friends and lovers 4ever and ever. Wdym I have to face my social ineptitude in the real world 🙅‍♀️🙅‍♀️🙅‍♀️🙅‍♀️🙅‍♀️🙅‍♀️🙅‍♀️🙅‍♀️

even tho I don't Get what ppl r talking ab when they say this is girlhood this is boyhood (idk man sounds like this is patriarchal gender roles but ok) I do really understand what girls mean when they see a video of boys having fun and comment I Wish I Could Do This. And it does irk me when the boys r like erm u can? And it's like no actually its not that simple. .. I think when people talk about boyhood theyre probably talking ab (generally, mostly) being allowed to be so insanely carefree

I llooooveeee going through my Instagram story archives all the time start to finish each time like hm maybe I don't hate myself all that much maybe this girl speaking on my phone is not all that insufferable she's kinda funny even

Tumblr mutualism is really funny U don't know me but u know my soul and secrets

I want more movies on depersonalization and derealization and I also want them to be as beautiful and gut wrenching and relatable as I Saw the Tv Glow