ja'boi

Well fuck, I’m miserable

Which means it’s me that hasn’t changed

Or moved an inch out of this place

That doesn’t mean I wanna end up this way

2. SEQUELS, REMAKES, & ADAPTATIONS

I want to know: If we were promised so much more

Then how do I get it?

Nothing’s ever really worked out this far

I’m well past the point of giving up

3. BELLYACHE

I don’t think I could fix this if I found God

4 BUFFALO BUFFALO

I know it’s wrong, but I’m thinking about buying a gun

5. OTIS/CARL

And I finally broke at a rental in Joshua Tree

I tell myself it gets better

But it never gets any easier when your voice ain’t on the other side

6. THE BOY CONSIDERS HIS HAIRCUT

I wanna wake up and maybe be better

I wanna come through and not be second-guessed

I wanna find the money to fix my nose

So I can sing without pacing

I don’t wanna be depressed

I wanna find a haircut that fits me

That hasn’t been stolen by Nazis

I’ll settle for some rest

I wanna move on, I wanna feel more important

I wanna be fine, I swear I’m trying to be my best

7. EL NIÑO CONSIDERS HIS FAILURES

To pay the rent on this dark space

Spruce it up and put some paint on the walls

Try to clean at least every other week

Unpack the boxes and put away the mess eventually

8. JOANA, IN FIVE ACTS

I’m too lazy to leave my home

I’m far too bored to let it go

Like it mattered in the end

Or like it did any good when you were still here

I can’t pick up the phone anymore

I won’t pick up the phone anymore

I’m always just stuck missing you now that you’ve disappeared

Why’d you leave without me?

9. BEER & NYQUIL (HOLD IT TOGETHER)

I’ve resigned my happiness to “lack-thereof”

Guess nothing’s perfect in the end

I’ll be alright

I’ll upend every good thing that I’ll find

I’ll keep pissing in the wind

I want to be the one

I want to know what I love

I want to hold it together

10. IT’S NOT INTERESTING

I’m spending a year out of my comfort zone

I don’t think I’ve ever been comfortable in my life or my own skin

So I spent a decade painting myself blue

Running from any hint of the truth

I’m far too old to complain about dying alone

When I’ve been the way I’ve been

I don’t think I could fix this if I found God

There’s not a drug in the world that could possibly wash this off

Can’t even go down to the river

Stick my fucking head in it

The feeling’s gone

Just let me come back home and wash the dark away

11. ALOHA TO NO ONE

You might wake up, but you’ll never be better

You might come through, but you’ll always second-guess

You might breathe free, but you’ll never stop pacing

You might find love, but you’ll always be depressed

You might change your hair, but you’ll always looks awkward

Your back might heal, but you’ll never get your rest

You might move on, but you’ll never feel important