notalamma

there’s nothing i yearn more for than a concave stomach. to just see that gap between my underwear and stomach as they’re held up by my hip bones. i need that more than anything. so desperate to have that again.

imagine being able to shower without still feeling dirty because of how repulsive your body is.

going from a normal weight to being underweight is insane bcs so much changes like skinny privilege is a hundred percent real and that fact disturbs me so fucking much like wdym my stims at bmi 22 used to be annoying but now at bmi 14 stimming is suddenly adorable wdym my outfits never got complimented but when i wear the exact same thing now people want my wardrobe wdym carrying heavy things around was totally fine but now people ask if they can carry it for me and help like wdymmmmm

the feminine urge to absolutely ruin your body in every way possible