not knowing where is next to go

your eyes blurred every stranger's face

while yours was filled with excitement's grace

your hands erased what "touching" held

eliminating all touches I've ever felt

your dancing words pushed dots away

left me begging and whining and for more to pray

your lips buried salt still stuck to my thighs

and filled me with love and taste and opened my eyes

your syllables made "guilt" and "shame" foreign

and made me understand why I was never inside the frame

seing me, you made me see I've never been seen

deserving only kindness and respect and nothing in between

and though sometimes you'd choke me breathless

and let me gasp for air, just reckless

your piano keys still showed my favorite canopies

and though some days you'd make me silent

and threw claims at me that were oh, so violent

you screaming bye was my most hurting lullaby

You left just like a tornado

leaving me not knowing where is next to go

your eyes gifted my eyes your shadowed sight

while you're moaningly resting in his bed at night

your hands gave mine shaking so much things are falling

while at night in ecstasis, all yours do is bawling

your dancing words made my words love hide and seek

while your words dance in trance around his cheek

your lips taught my lips the song of self-hatred

while your lips whitely drip all over his sacred bed

your syllables left hate and disgust for those men

while you fuck them again and again and again

You tore me into nothing but a tornado