GET SO FUCKING DARK IN HERE

kind of a bummer my teachers want me to be expressive when that takes a heavy toll on me mentally. that's literally just me pleasing people out of necessity, not being myself. People want anything out of me but myself

nice to know? my family n neighbors have noticed some character change even though i feel like its getting. worse. (it absolutely is but since it doesn't hurt anyone but me is. tech.nically. fine. its fine its not like i am slowly but surely giving less of a fuck

smetimes i think about how i was thiiiiiiis close to plunging a box cutter on this kids throat in high school. only reason i didnt is bc he didnt do anything to me that day. that luck wont follow him forever

ive been more inclined to the idea of marrying someone i actually care about and only interact with them for the rest of my life