Noah

i feel disgusting

i’ve started writing letters. and i’m telling my friends how much i love them, i need them to know this isn’t their fault

i think im just annoying you at this point, you probably don’t wanna be friends with me anymore really, i knew this was gonna happen eventually, it always does, im so sorry.

i wish i could save you

last night and today have been absolutely shit

things are getting really bad again. i thought i was finally better, its supposed to be better now, but its getting really, really bad again.

i just wish i could be a normal teenager

if i could have a wish i would make you disappear forever

even when i have great days like yesterday, i still feel shit afterwards because i feel like i dont deserve anything good in my life

whats the point of living if i just lose everyone that matters every time, i cant do anything i need to, im always trapped in other people’s plans, and i always feel absolutely helpless and horrible like this??

i feel like shit. ive been trying to make myself puke for the past like 15 minutes but its not working and i feel horrible because i feel like i ate way too much today and i feel like a shit person because of it. so ive settled on ripping open my old sh cuts. i fucking hate myself sm.