Yami

I wonder how many more shattered memories I have to experience

I don't want to sleep sad

I don't want to dream sad

Maybe if I wake up, I'd wake up in another world, with a different me.

But now after a few experiences, I know that I was wrong this whole time. I was never wanted or needed, I'm just a passing memory, just trying to be successful in the eyes of people who don't even bother to listen to me or look at me....I'm nothing and it's true, people ignore me because nobody cares about my ass.

I'm not who they think I am, but I can't convince them otherwise. I think it's my face, it's got the "she's a loser" look on it. My mother was right about me, who can love my ugly ass?

No matter how hard I try I'll be ugly on the inside and the out. Even though I'm not and I know it, to people I'll be the person they dislike, the person they want to ignore, the person they wanna stay away from. A loser.

I have a family who pity me instead of loving me, people have used more words to describe how much they dislike me more than using their words to describe how much they like me.

I don't think it's worth living anymore. No matter how much I try, people will never see me for who really am.

I wish my dad told me about this world, I wish someone told me, I wish I had a shoulder to cry on. As the days pass by,I die more and more and more. I might sound selfish because I'm thinking only about me, but what can I do? I feel so much pain and I feel like I'm not wanted, I feel like I'm an annoyance to people.