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🍪 [EN] Besides social media, I have a Telegram channel where I occasionally drop things that don't make it to main blogs! These can be random sketches, some personal photos, thoughts, or even the process of recording my music tracks! For the English-speaking audience, this is a temporary setup. 

I’m looking for another place that is simpler and more accessible for you, and start building a proper community once I’m personally more stable. The same goes for the website for “Future of the Past” — I want this project to really hit deep and evoke the right feelings, and a place where I could gather all the info would help solidify the bigger picture.

🫛 [RU] This channel is for Russian and Ukrainian speakers! Bean Plantation is a laid-back place where I let myself go a little crazy (partly literally)! Here, I also show my work processes, share various thoughts, and post random moments from life.

I’m a native speaker of these languages, which makes it easier to run the Plantation. Its main goal is to be a cozy, comfortable space rather than a perfect, proper blog. I want to gather my kind of people there — those who appreciate a channel of spontaneous thoughts just as much as something more organized.

His clothes size does change rather than staying the same :) As for that image you saw on Bean Plantation — on the last two pictures, he’s actually wearing two different kimonos with the exact same cut. Since this question has already been brought up before, I'll give a brief answer.

Lloyd altered his kimono a few times when he started losing shape, but at one point, he just got tired of it. When his new kimono stopped closing properly (for the fourth or fifth time), he decided to just leave it as it is. Frankly, it doesn't even look like a problem in the story. No one (except for ninja) will realize that the kimono fits wrong until this idiot says it himself. I thought it would be a funny moment and a way to highlight how peaceful everything seemed on the outside, even though Lloyd felt completely out of place.

This week I passed two tests with surprisingly few mistakes, officially confirming my A1 level in German! When arrived I was completely overwhelmed, especially by the language. Now I can even understand a little, the speech no longer sounds harsh to my ears, and can even say a few things myself 🥹 This is my first experience learning a language, and so worried that I wouldn’t be able to learn a single word, but... it’s just amazing! The next six months will be dedicated to studying A2, and if I pass, I’ll be able to continue my studies to the next levels! Since arriving in early September, there has been no chance to see the parents yet and the stay in social housing continues. Unfortunately the situation is difficult, with even more serious problems arising back home for them. There are a few plans in mind, but everything changes so fast that discussing them right now makes little sense. An update post will follow only if things actually work out... There is also an opportunity to get support me for training in a creative field, but given the circumstances, spending years on education feels doubtful.. ✨Self-learning is alive✨

I haven’t forgotten about project and arts, I’m just taking a break right now to sort out some other things. My gallery isn’t empty (especially the trash bin lol), and don’t just want to post, I want to elevate the quality of content! Honestly, this desire has grown over the past year because during this break, I noticed an awful lot of flaws in older work. Was shocked when I opened a post from 10 months ago and saw the difference, It feels so good to know that despite the pause art skills have actually grown ❤️‍🩹

Once, I said that the only way to defeat the Oni is to find something stronger than Destruction :(

Unlike pure-blooded Oni, who crave nothing but destruction and lack any human empathy, half-Oni absorb the emotions of their host. This perfectly explains why Garmadon mastered Destruction so effortlessly, while Lloyd broke under its weight. Garmadon lived alongside darkness since childhood, he learned to accept flawed side, achieving a twisted internal harmony with his Oni nature. He never saw demonic heritage as an abomination, to him, it was normal. Consequently, Garmadon could easily harness Destruction to serve his ambitions, instantly channeling his wrath with every emotional outburst.

Lloyd, however, is father’s absolute polar opposite. The poor soul is genuinely terrified of evil 😭 As the Green Ninja, he is bound to goodness, striving to be fair and just to everyone, while completely burying his own anger and resentment. Lloyd was willing to endure profound emotional agony just to spare others from it, and needless to say, discovering his Oni blood was a traumatic shock. Instead of accepting this facet of himself, Lloyd chose to ignore and suppress it… Since a half-demon’s Oni side feeds on the host’s emotions, it senses his suffering and struggle. In a way, it internalizes this pain and desperately tries to ”help”... Yet, bound by its demonic nature, Oni believes the only way to stop the hurting is to inflict that same pain onto others and seize absolute control. Its violent attempts to break free are a warped hand of rescue — a primal urge to protect Lloyd. At the same time, because there is no emotional bond between Lloyd and his inner shadow, the Oni remains consumed by a raw, demonic thirst for ruin. Its ultimate goal is simply to inflict trauma and devastate everything in its path, even if it destroys Lloyd’s own body in process.

Therefore, to prevent a tragedy Lloyd must stop restraining his Oni side, which deeply loathes suppression. To bridge the gap between them, Lloyd needs to feel safe and supported. Only then will the Oni's destructive urges subside, allowing them to finally reach a state of mutual understanding.

Unfortunately, right now the only sources are my blogs and the posts in them, so everything is pretty scattered around :((

OMG 🥹 thank you so much for this question! The personality of Oni himself truly plays a huge role, because it is literally a part of what Lloyd suppresses and what awakens this bitterness inside him!

First of all, I want to showcase the inner Oni soon in test comic so people can catch his charisma and notice the contrast with regular Lloyd :) Compared to normal Lloyd, Oni has rejected goodness and good memories, while in his normal state, Lloyd, on the contrary, does the same with evil. I'd say this character literally turns inside out!

Oni Lloyd holds a grudge against goodness, he is driven by the idea that peace can only be achieved through control and power. “Do good, and good will come to you” — seemingly ceased to exist for him. This is partly due to the fact that when Lloyd found himself in silence, he didn't feel the support he wanted, so the resentment, trauma, and evil inside him began to lure him to the other side. To the 'right' side. Oni's view leans toward the idea that people will only pay attention if you inflict this pain back on them, as it feels more just than suffering in silence. He is literally the personification of Lloyd's pain. Also, Oni is stripped of morality, suppresses absolutely nothing, and hates boundaries. He is like your inner critic who phenomenally presses on your most vulnerable spots and picks the most repulsive words, and it's precisely because of these blurred boundaries and lack of restraint that he loses control of himself. The very nature of the demon amplifies this cruelty… He doesn't just see evil as the right path, but also derives pleasure from attacking and destroying, in a way, releasing the pain that his host holds back.

Today is my birthday, now I'm the same age as Lloyd! xD 🎉🎉 🎉

Like that :D

However, in the first season Lloyd's own personality will degrade, and he will spoil as a person under the Oni's influence. Despite this, his Oni has its own appearance, looking quite insane compared to Lloyd. When Oni takes over, Lloyd himself becomes like that too

The difference between the inner and the real Oni Lloyd is literally just the physique, in reality he isn't skinny and that's the whole difference. Both show a insane smile, messy hair, and a cracked voice. I figured this looks way more badass and terrifying than Lloyd just turning into an Oni. Demon slowly weaving itself into him

And according to my headcanon, Oni starts to corrupt the host's personality if they struggle with emotional control and haven't found inner peace. For example, Garmadon trained in this during his childhood, which is why he was able to instantly control power of Destruction in season 8 as soon as he learned about it, whereas Lloyd just tried to suppress its existence. Oni feeds on emotions, and Lloyd became the perfect vessel to be corrupted..

In the autumn, it will be a year since me and brother left for Germany and received refugee status. Everything has been so unpredictable and exhausting that I decided to share any updates much later. Even now, as I am writing this post, we are in an confusion situation, so…