nihsuon

let’s type something down, shall we i just remembered that i used to use tumblr because i had no one and i guess for the time where i stopped using tumblr, i did have people now again, i kind of don’t but then again, i now have more friends than i ever did really close friends as well, in fact yet there will always be a part of me i won’t be able to share anywhere but here but i think, i was stronger back then no wait, i actually had basically no struggles back then compared to now at least you see, today i realized that I’m an extremely selfish person or maybe today proved that i care the least about my father out of the people of my family when i shouted at him i did mean what i said yet at the same time i knew that what i was doing was wrong i never wanted to do that my mom sent me downstairs to defend her and so i did at least i think i did and at first mom even thanked me for defending her but it didn’t feel right i wasn’t proud or anything turns out i didn’t feel that way for no reason my mom later accused me for my behaviour “why did you do that? why did you say those things to him?” in that moment i started to laugh i mean what do you want? what do you expect me to do? one second you say you have no feelings for him the next you’re crying your heart out and inbetween there is me, who caused this whole drama i don’t get it i don’t get love and i’m just afraid of love because i’m not sure if i’m capable of dealing with love it is too grand i don’t know i just want to be able to finish writing my paper and i want to visit ridu in düsseldorf i want to rather love women than men because there is a difference between the two i can deal with loving women because that’s a sisterly kind of love but i can’t deal with loving a man because that’s an overwhelming kind of love let’s end this here

there is nothing as powerful as love love is dangerous beware of love love can occupy you love can break you love can tear you apart love can drown you love makes you blind love has no boundaries love is a mystery love is life love carefully love rightfully love the right person love for the sake of Allah love is unconditional love is timeless wait for love love takes time love is home love is ethereal love needs to be taken care of you have no idea of love you have never been loved in its truest sense you are not ready for love yet you are younger than your age you need to be patient you must not rush you need to work on yourself you need to learn you need to grow you need to accept you need to focus you need to develop you won't be disappointed in sha Allah

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“cocoon time is over” -  Yasmin Mogahed