✨️🖤Poetic soul in an endless universe🖤✨️

Remember that nothing in this life belongs to us. We come from the ether and will return to the ether. Cherish the magical moments and love as fully as you can for all things come to an end. I'm learning not to hold on so tight... and working on finding the bittersweet beauty in all that has been and in all that was lost.

Well... I knew it would happen eventually my love. I finally found someone to spend time with and although I'm enjoying getting to know someone I can't help but feel guilty. I almost feel like I'm being unloyal by allowing someone else to get close. I don't want to guard my heart forever and miss out on a beautiful life.. but it still kills me doing all of this without you. Im happy to be enjoying life a little more lately.... still doesn't make it any easier experiencing joy without you. Love you always beautiful.

Rye.... how do I let go? How do I move on? How do I find happiness when you were all that I had. I feel so pathetic, so lifeless, so hopeless. Why do I have to go on without you? Why can't I just hit the eject button and call it all over?? I told you I could never live without you... and now here I am in hell. Every moment excruciating, every second worst than the last. Every minute I miss you more. Every day I wonder more where have you gone and how do I get to you? I never knew what life was before you... and i don't know how to be a human anymore now that you're gone. Plz love just call me home soon.... im so lost without you.

God.... you ever feel buried so deep you'll never come back to the surface??? Ever since ive lost you I have been like a shell of my former self... autonomous response. I smile, laugh and reply when needed. But beneath it all... im dying. Im suffocating, struggling for one last breath of life... because ive been frozen since i lost you. The world stopped turning. Only for me. Everyone else kept moving seemelessly forward and here I am... stuck. Frozen in time. Waiting for an asteroid to grant my wish and take me away from here.... bring me closer to you. If youre out there in the ether my love, I hope you can hear me. I hope you can see me... and I hope youre waiting for me to come home... because you are still all I think about.... even a year after you've been gone. Rip Ryanne... ill find you in every life... I promise.