M(in)y Mind

A zit right under my left eye, swollen lids, eyes feel like burning.

I literally feel sick and want to vomit!

2 hectic day of encounting weird event and conflicts, and I feel like I was belittled.

Is it wrong that I wish to pursuit the path I want?

My view is not like yours, then you can simply offer the word “not suitable” to me, why imposing me?

Again you’re welcome to give a word of advise, but keep forcing me to be like you, implying you are some kind of superior while giving no professional verification from your position, is not sitting well with me.

Pouring all your opinions while dismissing mine, and proudly stating you don’t take a dime about my feeling.

Putting my family on the table is not nice also. 

My desperation in looking for an employment led me to that place, surely my weird intuition kept screaming red flag and I ignored it. 

Just somewhat cleaned up my skincare/makeup items, gonna organize my clothes tmr

Wish I have some personal space though...

Or maybe I just need to throw away bunch of useless stuffs

Social-distance planning

Before that, on my first day after leaving my job + assuming to start social-distance, I spent the entire time reading fanfic. And I haven’t completed it yet. So this planning might not be executed though lol.

And I personally never feel social-distance will be hard for me. Probably thanks to the fact that I’m living with my family. The idea of living alone, however, is very tempting and intriguing to me.

Now onto the list of things that I hope myself to be doing

1. Reading (2 books)

2. Working on Korean workbook (5-10 pages a day)

3. Walking, running, biking, dancing or squatting (moving in general) for at least 10 minutes

4. Watching a few recommended Korean movies

5. Less obsess over the new game

6. Keep an eye for new (possible/temporary) employment

7. Decide when to buy a new laptop and smartphone

8. Sincerely hoping for this chaos to pass

9. Chat with friends

So I left my current job.

Maybe it’s not the best to do it considering the pandemic situation. The idea of getting a decent freelance translating work is like looking to buy a surgical facemask at this time - everyone is doing it. The best hope I’m hanging on is in a tight circumstance itself (I’m super excited about this position, everyone pls pray for me).

But I’m sure it’s not the best to stay either. Fond of nothing and no one, beside my tasks.

So I’m convinced I have made a better decision (for me).