It is embarrassing how little self control I have. How bad I feel like I need you. It’s embarrassing being in this fucking spot mentally, emotionally, creatively, intellectually. That’s why I can only text when I’m drunk. Cause I’m no longer embarrassed. That’s why I drink all of the time. To stop feeling bad about feeling bad. To get the courage to talk. I’m sorry it’s like this. I’m sorry I’m not who i was. Who i could be. Who I’m supposed to be. I was just trying to deal with so much shit on my own so you wouldn’t have to that idk who i am anymore.




















