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Kids really do not care, or at least, not as much as us adults do (I'm 19 so I'm barely legal but my point still stands). I was talking to my niece at a family gathering (she's like, 7) and there were lapses of silence during our conversation in which I was so sure that the awkwardness of it all would drive her away and cause her to bolt to someone with a greater capacity for conversation. But no, she just stayed. I think we (or just I) get wrapped up in wanting to keep things loud. Maybe the awkward silence that everyone talks about is personal, maybe it's some weird metaphysical concept that we make up out of anxiety. I was also ecstatic as hell because that was the longest conversation we'd had literally ever. Her and I aren't particularly close but we know each other and we're not strangers
Me rambling on about this makes my exact point. She probably gives zero shits and is off in some la-la land and I'm reading in between the lines of a single interaction we had. Girl I need to touch some grass this is insane lmao. I'm not saying kids her age don't have complex thoughts but I also wouldn't say they're particularly complicated
Tagging - I interact with literally no one else on here sorry LMAO
Go-To Snack at a Convenience Store - I adore the Hawaiian Sweet Maui Onion Chips!! they are delish
Favorite Type of Clown - me overanalyzing every minuscule interaction I have with this guy in my anatomy class because I'm convinced he's in love with me
Height - I'm a wee 5'2
Favorite Song Right Now - Style by Taylor Swift is an all time fav but rnnn is probably Evergreen by Omar Apollo or Maria by Justin Bieber
Favorite Item of Clothing & Where I Got It - my friend got me these rly flowy black pants from a small business based in Thailand for my bday and I can't remember the brand name but they are so nice even if they're a little big around the waist hehe
Last Movie/Show I Watched & Enjoyed - I watched TBOSAS recently and thought it was alright :) Before that, it was Crazy Rich Asians on my birthday and I loved it as always!!
Last Movie/Show I Watched & Hated - the last thing I remember not loving was the 1st episode of The Office. I just couldn't sit through the 1st season
Thing You Have no Use for But Refuse to Throw Out - I ordered a 4 pack of the vanilla Burt's Bees and used them religiously before I switched to my tub of Aquaphor and they all say "[my name]'s Bees" on them instead of Burt's Bees bc they sell customs and I still have all of the empty tubes omg
Have You Ever Met Your Great-Grandparents? - no :( they both passed before I was born
Favorite Flower - I'm a v simple gal and a huge fan of baby's breath
Favorite Quote - “I think there are people that help you become the person that you end up being and you can be grateful for them, even if they were never meant to be in your life forever. I’m glad I knew you too” I think this is from Bojack Horseman. have been doing some grieving these days so this fits
What Superpower Would You Pick if You Could Have One? - girl bye I had to look up examples of superpowers anyways I think healing or elemental control or teleportation
Fictional Character(s) I Would Most Want to Meet - Harry Potter, Meredith Grey, Topanga Lawrence
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oh my fuck you guys I think I got closer than I ever have been to lucid dreaming last night
it was j weird bc I'm never aware that I'm lucid dreaming; I'll usually be in the dream and kind of become aware, or at least aware enough to start wanting to ground myself
either that night or the night before, I was in the shower 🤭 and I was kind of out of it so I tried using my 5 senses to j ground myself back into the moment
like, I just didn't feel present and I was in my head and I was a whole mess but that's a story for another time (or never hehe)
anyways, back to the dream
I just started counting out my 5 senses (5 things I can see, 4 things I can touch, 3 sounds, 2 smells, 1 taste, etc etc) and I remember trying so hard to just focus on that
my sense of touch/sight has always been strong in my dreams lucid or not, but idk why I couldn't get myself to fully immerse in it
I think I was trying too hard to turn my dream into reality instead of grounding myself so that I could walk around and everything
I ended up getting woken up by something and I woke up immediately having remembered everything, which doesn't normally happen but yk it was a vibe
Hi guys this happened a couple of nights ago and I've been putting off posting about it bc idk, I just haven't
But basically
I'm 75% sure I was between realities the other night
I was in a dream (not lucid) and walking through this cafeteria typa place and got to this window that looked into the outside/this other side of the cafeteria
There were just these girls sitting at one of those round cafeteria tables and I could hear them talking so clearly
The next thing I remember is everything going black and I was like, half-awake and I could feel everything in my surroundings (my CR bed, etc, basically just what I fell asleep in)
I was in sleep-paralysis so I couldn't move but I could still hear the girls talking so I just closed my eyes and tried focusing on sounds from my mcu DR
I knew the girls talking wasn't from any DR that I've scripted for, so I basically ended up thinking like "okay I need to really hear my mcu DR"
I focused on trying to hear sounds that I scripted I would wake up to (my dog's collar jingling, etc) but it all ended up just sounding like thoughts in my head, if u get what I mean
I didn't end up shifting to my DR that night and I honestly didn't wake up all too excited either
I've never really been one to get super excited after waking up from a near-shift to my DR or attempt or whatever, I usually wake up forgetting that I was gonna shift in the 1st place 😃
I have absolutely no clue which reality I was hearing into, or if I was between realities at all, because hearing female voices having a full conversation is not something I've scripted as my "wake up" in any of my DRs
I actually just checked and here are similar things I have scripted to that in any of my DRs
Bucky: Maria Hill and Fury are chatting
Harry Potter: my mama is up and calling my name
But also none of these are the same at all so I'm v confused
HI GUYS OKAY SO I WAS GONNA MAKE THIS THIS MORNING BUT THEN I GOT DISTRACTED anyways
I woke up like an hour or so before my alarm went off and tried falling back asleep
Half-asleep, I felt my phone in my hand and heard some Ariana Grande TikTok playing
I was so fucking confused bc I couldn't remember keeping the TikTok playing so I woke back up to turn it off
I tried falling back asleep
This is where it gets kind of hazy because 1 of 2 things happened after that
1) I woke back up and realized that what happened was weird because I didn't fall asleep with my phone in my hand and looked at my nightstand to see my phone was where I left it
2) I woke back up and realized that what happened was weird because I wasn't on TikTok before I went to bed
Either way, I don't remember being on my phone when I woke up before my alarm. Even if I was, I don't fall asleep holding my phone and both scenarios were v out of place in general because if I was on my phone, it was not to be on ArianaTok (no shade, I j am not involved)
What I'm trying to say is that I'm pretty sure I mini-shifted somewhere, whether that be a parallel reality or something similar idk
Things I know:
That I definitely wasn't watching a TikTok of Ariana Grande before I tried falling back asleep
That I definitely didn't try to fall back asleep with my phone in my hand
Things I'm still unsure of:
Whether or not I was on my phone before trying to fall back asleep
And whether or not I was on TikTok before trying to fall back asleep
Anyways sorry if I sound fucking insane but I was stunned when I fully woke up this morning. I literally shot up like "???"
I finished going over my Bridgerton script last night and felt like shifting there so I did and instead of waking up in my DR I woke up here doing mental calculus related to my DR (somehow??) and I literally could not stop myself but I also could not tell you what I was trying to do addition for
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y'all I'm not sorting this into my masterlist because it's getting redundant at this point (is that even the right word? idk). but I keep having the dreams where I dream that I went lucid and then try to shift but don't end up shifting.
I'll basically just "realize" that I'm in a dream and then go to close my eyes so that I can affirm and shift, but then open my eyes n stop so that I can ground myself in my dream. I've had like 3-4 of these dreams now and I'm so??? is my subconscious trying to tell me something?
because all I do to try and "shift" is say affirmations and that's what I do when I'm "dreaming" but it never works when I'm in my dream. I thought about it before falling asleep last night and sort of just re-evaluated everything.
I realized that when I do my "method" and say affirmations, I'm never doing it with "conviction", like I just kinda say affirmations and hope shit works. I also saw a TikTok a while ago talking about how you can connect your love language to shifting n mine is quality time so I listened to her talk about that.
long story short, I think I simply need to be more "forceful" when I try to shift and not half ass it. even though I know that you don't *really* need to put in boat loads of sweat but I think I *personally* need to put in the effort to feel good about myself. that's it, hope u enjoyed this mini tangent 😍
Last night I was going to shift and for whatever reason, my acid reflux decided that it wanted to try and act up so I felt like shit leading up to me actually falling asleep. I couldn't focus on saying my affirmations n stuff because I felt like crap but anyways.
My dream started with me in Disneyland (California Adventure, specifically) and I was just walking around this shop on the Pier. It was a massive shop that was styled like the one right at the end of Toy Story Midway Mania but right where the ferris wheel was.
I was walking around the store with my brother and then I went off on my own before I circled back around and tried looking for him again. Then we started looking for my backpack because I guess I had put it down ON THE GROUND somewhere??? Anyways- we couldn't find it but then I was like "wait yo I can just use my powers to conjure my backpack to me" and it worked. Literally just wiggly-wooed my fingers and my backpack was back in my hands.
We eventually met up with our parents so that we could eat and that's when I became conscious of the fact that I was dreaming, but not fully lucid dreaming. I wanna say I just had a dream about me becoming lucid and I wasn't actually lucid ykyk.
I sat there and thought "okay so I'm gonna try to shift" but stopped I so that I could try grounding myself in my dream, so that I wouldn't lose the dream that I was in. Dude this lady fucking looked at me right as I was doing Dr. Strange hands and tried opening a portal to my main Marvel DR so I literally just turned around and went about my business. It didn't work but purple mist started forming from my hands so I just kind of closed my eyes and figured it was starting to work, but then I got pulled from my dream and heard my grandma talking from outside of my door (which didn't actually happen, I think I was pulled into another dream).
Let me tell you though, the dream felt so so hazy but also the most real I've felt ever. This is the 2nd dream I've had about me trying to shift since the last little thing I posted, and it has kind of put me into a reflective mood. I think I need to slow down or something, kind of hard to put all of my thoughts into words. But yeah. That's it 😍
Quick Intro: I've been shifting (trying to) since September of 2020, which is around the time Harry Potter was blowing up on TikTok, and I've been hooked since. I'm definitely not as haywire crazy about shifting and Harry Potter anymore, but I do still love and indulge in both. My main DR, and the first one I ever made a script for, used to be a Harry Potter DR, but I've since branched out and made a thousand different scripts and changed them a thousand different times, so I really haven't finished any of my scripts until just recently, which makes me think I should actually be glad I haven't shifted yet 🫣.
On Thursday morning (Sept. 15th, 2022), I woke up from the oddest experience ever. I've only REALLY lucid dreamt a handful of times and I don't think this was one of those times, but at the same time, I do. I had one of those dreams where I became aware that I was dreaming but it wasn't a conscious thought, I think I was just dreaming about me being lucid and not actually being lucid if that makes sense.
I started imagining these 2 big-ass engraved, wooden doors, like those fancy ones with the glass in the middle and black swirly designs on them, but they were completely wooden and not glass. I stared at the door and shut my eyes, thinking to myself "this is the DR I want to go to" (literally that exact phrase, without specifying which of my DRs I actually wanted to go to lol), and then I peaked my eyes open a bit before actually stepping through the doors and then everything went black (not scarily though, like a slideshow in which one slide is in color and the next is blacked-out).
I tried getting myself to focus on my DR and wanting to shift to my Lokidottir DR, which is the only DR that I've (I think) really finished a script for, but I wouldn't let myself open my eyes because it hadn't felt like anything in my surroundings changed, it still felt like I was lying in my CR bed and cuddled up in my fuzzy blanket. But then I decided that I was going to risk it and pop my eyes open.
I opened my eyes and realized that I had "shifted" but wasn't in my room, but in a room in my grandparents' house. What's weird is that I automatically knew that I was in my grandparents' house, even though the room that I opened my eyes in isn't a room that's actually in their house here. I turned and Peter Parker was just sitting to my left and goes "hi sweetheart", I just??? I kept myself calm, I literally felt no fear.
I'm realizing now that this is somewhat similar to the scenario I scripted that I wake up to when I first shift to my Lokidottir DR: I wake up in my apartment to my phone ringing because Peter is trying to FaceTime me and see if he can come over since he lives right across the hall. What I scripted and what happened in this shifting dream are very different but I like to think that this was meant to be a parallel.
That's when I remembered @ shiftingwithreva's tip about grounding yourself in your DR and vigorously feeling out your surroundings, so I just started rubbing at my comforter with my hands to get myself going while I was sitting with Peter. After a couple of moments, I finally got out of bed and went walking around the house to look for my grandparents. Their room and the entire upstairs were empty so I went downstairs and into the kitchen where my grandma was cooking, and I guess my presence scared her or something because she jumped lmao.
I want to say that I've had a "shifting experiences" like this before, but waking up from that "dream" was so surreal?? I've never had more motivation than I did in the few moments that I took to analyze what I'd just dreamt about. I will say, though, that I choose to consider that experience a "mini-shift" because it was just that exciting!
The only other experience that I remember being similar to this one is this one time I was watching Age of Ultron (which is the point I'm shifting to btw) and paused it because I was tired and wanted to take a nap. In the dream that I had that afternoon, I woke up on a metal table to Wanda and Natasha standing around in the lab that's in Tony's Malibu basement (I think), and then I very blurrily started trying to use my powers. But anyway.
For me, it felt like my subconscious was finally acknowledging this huge thing that I've been trying to do for the last 2 years and this specific DR that I've been trying to get to. It was sweet. That's it though! If you've read up until this point, I hope you stick around long enough to read the DR storytimes that I'll get to share in the future :)
Dreams of mine that I've had and then written into stories for you to enjoy.
THE ONE WHERE I MEET HIM AT A DISNEY STORE
- A trip to the mall takes an unexpected turn as I meet a certain celebrity in the Disney Store, of all places.
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Author’s Note: written based on a dream that I had during some night of sleep, enjoy :)
Warning(s): details may be confusing or not flow well and make sense
Summary: I very hazily run into Harry Styles in the Disney Store
I felt a sudden urge to venture into the Disney store across the mall and began wandering in mindlessly, feeling hazy as I stepped through the glass doors. The store was almost completely empty but I paid little attention to this fact as I brought my eyes to meet those of the curly-haired man in front of me.
It took me a couple of blinks to finally notice that the owner of the dusty brown locks was the one, the only, Harry Styles…with a stroller in tow? I should note, though, that I didn’t feel particularly excited by this sudden meeting. In fact, I felt nothing at all. A normal Sunday- wait, Saturday? Who keeps track of the time anymore?
I reached up to tap the shoulder of Harry’s fuzzy cardigan and he turned around to face me.
“Hi, would you mind if I got a picture?”
The smile that crossed his face was one of pure kindness. “Sure thing,” he warmly obliged.
I pulled my phone out of one of the snug pockets on the front of my shorts and snapped a picture of Harry Styles, of all people, holding onto the stroller that he had parked in front of himself. It never occurred to me to ask for a picture WITH him, but then again, I’m not exactly the brightest in social situations.
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Some time passed before I would visit that same mall again, and whether a couple of days or even a couple of weeks had passed between now and my initial trip is completely unclear to me. But I digress.
I walked into the same Disney Store again, not knowing why I was doing so, and it felt like no time had passed since the first time I paid a visit. I knew I was there for a reason, but I couldn’t quite put my finger on it.
Then I saw him. Again.
Harry Edward Styles; singer, songwriter, actor, former One Direction band member. The same sort of interaction occurs as did the first time: I asked for a picture, completely neglected to think that I might want to be in the photograph with him too, and now sat two pictures of Harry Styles donning one of those lightweight folding strollers within the depths of my camera roll.
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Later that same day, I was meandering around the mall with my mother when I suddenly realized that I had never gotten to actually take a picture with Harry, just of him. Perhaps, in the moment, I was too focused on making it look like I wasn’t such an eager and jumpy fan to actually get proof of my interaction with the singer.
My mother and I slowly approached the infamous Disney Store when I said, “Mom, we have to go back into the store. He’s probably still in there.”
She complied without question, though maybe I should’ve been more curious as to why she agreed to take me back into a store I had no interest in buying anything from, for a man whose name I didn’t mention.
We walk into the store, which I’ve noticed is almost yellow in aura, the lightbulbs in the ceiling doing little to illuminate the almost feverish space, and scan the area for Harry. I looked towards the checkout line and saw that there were these small children, parentless, dispersed throughout the queue with a man who appeared oddly to me like the man that I was looking for. After all, they were wearing a similar top.
I began poking at my mother excitedly and exclaimed “that’s him! That’s him!”
We made our way around the tall figure only to see that it wasn’t the Harry Styles I was looking for, but instead a random Asian man whose latest hair stylist probably needed a couple more years in whatever school she got her license from.
Next thing I knew, my mother and I were standing in line to get help from any one of the employees that were scattered about the store and I came to a realization.
“I’ve imagined this exact moment before, I genuinely think I manifested this. Before bed, I stay awake and imagine scenarios, and each time I’ve found comfort in imagining Harry Styles in a Build-A-Bear store. He would be walking in and pushing around a stroller as I walk in and meet him…”
My words were all jumbled as I attempted to piece together and explain the various ideas that cross my mind before I go to sleep, but it wasn’t long before we were actually at the counter and the woman behind it was ready to help us with a warm smile on her face.
“We can call him out for you,” the woman says as she gestures towards the bench behind us.
I turned to see that two girls were already waiting on the elongated red plank and took my seat as we were each called, one by one, up to the backroom to say hi to Harry. One of the girls looked very familiar to me and so I cast a questioning look her way, paying no mind to the way I was literally staring at her.
It looked to me like she was one of the online friends that I had made over the past couple of years that I had been on TikTok, and I was determined to find out if it was. Before long, she was glancing over at me too, her eyes appearing as though she was wondering the same questions as I.
The woman who had assisted us at the counter came through the door to the backroom, breaking the quiet lingering between mine and my supposed friend’s awkward glances and approached us.
“If you guys want to meet him, we’re going to have to search you if you want to take videos of him.”
In the moment, it seemed like it made sense because Harry Styles, however normal he may seem, was certainly not the average man. He had a reputation to upkeep, an image to keep pristine. If I had some kind of weapon on me, that image could be ruined.
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Everything is black as a series of empty photographs appear in the emptiness before me, question marks decorating some of the corners of each of the images’ white borders.
I never ended up meeting him, he’s just not going to come.
Some of the pictures donned labels, questions to go along with the marks that stuck to their corners, questions like “Is it going to happen?” “Did he disappear?” “Is he not there anymore?”
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I’m suddenly standing in front of the store’s glass doors once more, but it’s as if no time has passed between the point at which I was sitting beside my mother and now.
For the fourth time, I walked through the opening and into the Disney Store, this go around with different motives. I glanced around and brought my eyes to meet Harry’s green ones as he stood as I had seen him do twice before.
“Hey, I realized I’ve walked into this store twice and taken a picture of you but never with you.”
“My God, you’re totally right,” Harry replied with a grin. “When this stuff happens, I usually have Jasmine take the photos.”
At the mention of this “Jasmine” I don’t flinch, it’s as if I didn’t even register that he said her name at all. I propped my phone up on a nearby shelf and set the camera to run on a 10-second timer, paying little notice to the 25-second option that had appeared in the settings. The store seemed to darken and I began counting down from 10 for both Harry and I to hear.
We posed for my phone and I went to check the photo, noticing that I looked really good for the setting that we were in- but wait- that wasn’t Harry in the photo. I turned to look at Harry to verify that it’s him I was taking a picture with and was relieved to see that he still sat beside me. Huh, must be my lack of 20/20 vision.
Sitting down on the plastic-white floor, our conversation commenced with the basic “how are you”s, though I cannot remember what words were specifically exchanged in that moment.
I wonder if I should ask about HS3…
“How has tour been?” I finally manage to get out.
“It has been amazing, I’ve never been this happy,” Harry gushes. “Just, tour and getting to go around doing shows has been amazing.”
I nod knowingly. “I’ve seen videos of your shows all over TikTok. I, personally, couldn’t go because my family can’t afford it. But it’s amazing, what you’ve been doing.”
The next few moments of our conversation passed in a blur as we conversed about a plethora of things that seem to have slipped my consciousness. I started telling him exactly what I was telling my mother hours before: that this exact moment has passed through my mind on multiple occasions in the seconds before I’m meant to fall asleep, him and I in this same Disney Store and sharing this same moment together.
Harry bursts into laughter, prompting me to do the same even though I don’t find the situation funny at all. Perhaps it’s just the heat of the moment that causes me to mimic his actions and humor his amusement. It gets to the point where we’re both bending over ourselves because we’re laughing so hard, Harry’s head bumping against mine as at the hilarity of our current situation and I react the same way, not to the haphazardness of our meeting but instead HIS reaction to it all.
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