archived.

if you have known me for a while you know that i remake blogs often. i get uncomfortable on a blog or overwhelmed with the amount of things i owe and then i need to remake. i have been feeling like remaking this blog again even though i started it about a month ago. when i moved my other blogs to this one i wanted to keep my follower count, drafts, and asks numbers small. i'm sitting at over 250 followers, 45 drafts, and 108 inbox prompts. i look at these numbers and i get anxious because i cannot keep up with everything. i want to write with so many blogs and i want to write so many muses and it's overwhelming.

i want to remake again and try really hard to keep my inbox under 50 at all times, and my drafts under 15 at all times. i want to keep my follower count to around 100 as well. but i'm worried that if i do this again it'll just end up getting uncontrollable again. it's frustrating because i love writing, i love this hobby, and i feel like i'm awful at it. i'm not a consistent writer and i struggle often to even recognize my writing as something that is good. i feel like i let my writing partners down by not writing consistently. i also feel bad that a majority of my content is just me rambling ooc about nonsense.