TRIGGER WARNING-
this blog has lots of unpleasant imagery on it and I'm too cognitively handicapped to tag reliably. This is my uncensored safe space.
I complain here so I don't complain out loud too much. I'm a reformed persecutor alter from a mixed origin system. Happy to explain to you how we exist if you think we don't.
18+ please.
Scroll at your risk.
I follow from my hosts account @polychaeteworm
My name is pronounced "Sara". I'm not a girl, not a boy, not a man, not a woman.(You can call me a woman though if you like.) I'm a tall alien. Femme like an elf, masc like a vampire. I'm mostly autoromantic and objectum for large bongs and blades. I am in an in system selfcest relationship with my doppelganger. I am both gay and sapphic.
I don't care what pronouns you use on me. My host defaults to he/him but I do not mind she/her or shee/hir. My species is cosexed, with an individualistic gender system, so I am Xenogender and genderflux in every sense of the words. My gender simply isn't human.
I post about swords, weed, stupidly long hair and gay goth shit. I am the most beautiful thing on earth.
Kinks that might appear here- smoking/intox, blood/blades, shibari, parasitism/corruption, various forms of brain damage, and maybe sometimes consang.
Discourse positions-
I'm anti misinfo and support all forms of plurality. My system is traumagenic but I do not like associating my existence with a mental disorder because of my origin within my paracosm. I respectfully don't like being referred to as having "come from trauma". My origin is complex and unrelated to any trauma. Do not call me an "apparently normal part" I'm not a part, I'm a complete entity and there is literally nothing normal about me.
I don't have a DNI, I just block if I don't want to interact. Just be nice and don't violate your own DNI to speak to me.
I'm a survivor of complex abuse (not quite RAMCOA but damn close) who writes and reads nasty things to cope and I'm not interested in hearing why you think I'm a freak for my kinks or the stuff I reblog. I'm pro-recovery and pro fiction. I do not support irl harm. I don't think of what I write as "shipping" because my system mostly reads and writes OC and we associate the term shipping with fandom. We don't mind fanfics, we just favor focusing on OC content.
Send all complaints to my host and steward, Orn (@polycheateworm) he is better articulate and I'm not nice to have an argument with because of my language challenges so please be patient. He also is better equipped to answer most questions you might have about me. Most of what I say here is dictated within the system so I'm actually less articulate as an altar than I appear on average so if I get upset and don't have an alter to dictate to, my language might decline.
What does your username mean?
My system has maladaptive daydreaming and I am an introject of an extremely developed OC from a paracosm.
Because I spent most of my life living inside an inner world that is as complex as the real one, my personal history and memories are not fully Earth Related.
Neurothea is an illness on the planet I come from. It hurts your brain in a lot of ways, you catch it from parasites and it can kill you. If you survive it you will have large scars from it. it's an exotrauma embodiment of complex abuse my human body has suffered. Its a fictional way that I as an alter interface with the difficulty my body has.
