System Blog

they should make a getting back on your meds that works immediately. why am i still feeling so anxious

i am normal and healthy and not going to relapse on my ed. i am a normal guy i am soooo normal

therapy is weird sometimes. accidentally summoned like 4 people to front and now we're all hanging out

nothing like therapy to make you realize how much of a skeleton of a person you are

we keep having suspicious memory gaps with one specific theme. who's taking those memories. i know you exist. who are you

hate when things activate the kill yourself beam. need to take a shower to try and reset my brain, but i CANT shower because of the kill yourself beam. catch 22 moment and i hate it

up missing a headmate hours. he split a couple years back, and then only a month or so later, he split into several other parts due to additional trauma. now most of those parts have integrated thanks to therapy but he's still gone. he wasn't here for long and i didn't know him very well but i still miss him. i know he was kind and funny. a weird kind of grief

heard a song today that was so one of us it genuinely was a bit distressing. luckily was only minorly triggering but still

(jean valjean voice) who am i