๐ ~Lessons of Love ~๐
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Professor!Chris Sturniolo x Babydoll!Avery Lane
Intro and previous chapters
CW: hella angst, self blame, mentions of ODing, cursing, lmk if I missed anything
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I hate hospitals as most do, I always found them nauseating. Especially when you think about how oneโs life could have just beginning while anotherโs couldโve just needed in the same building is horrifying.
Some pray in the waiting room on their way in, others cry in the parking lot on their way out. No one knows why youโre there or who youโre there for, nor do they really care.
That is what I hate most about hospitals. No one gives a shit about anyone elseโs well being except their own. Youโd think being put in that situation would make them more empathetic for others but no. Truthfully they could not care less about your dying daughter or sick son as long as their family member gets to see the doctor next.
So when someone I knew had to stay in the hospital for some reason Iโd usually send my prayers via text message.
When the paramedics rushing Avery to the hospital asked if I wanted to go with them I didnโt even hesitate to say yes.
My head throbbed from the sirens, the paramedics spoke medical terms that I couldnโt comprehend. Not when all I could do was stare at Averyโs limp body hooked up to thousands of machines. Pale as the snow on winter break and a heartbeat so weak it whispers instead of pounding. All I can do is replay the last hour in my head over and over again.
Punishing myself, blaming myself for everything that has happened. Thinking of ways I couldโve stopped this all from happened.
If I didnโt breakup with her this wouldnโt have happened. If I didnโt completely cut her off this wouldnโt have happened. If I just reached out for once this wouldnโt have happened. If I hadโฆ
I looked back up at her, her numbers were dropping quick. A irritating beeping noise was filling the tight walls of the ambulance. I was about to ask what was happening, if she was going to be ok but suddenly we came to a stop.
The paramedics rushed Avery out into the big hospital. One of them ushered me to the waiting room but out of the corner of my eye I could see her still. Surrounded but every nurse and doctor on the floor. I saw people peaking out of their rooms to see what was going on. My heart truly broke at that moment.
Because I realized I couldnโt be the cure this time, I couldnโt help her survive this, and if she doesnโt survive I donโt think I could ever forgive myself for it.
I sat in the waiting room for who knows how long. Hunched over, knee bouncing, picking at my nails as I felt my phone go off with a million texts from the university asking why I didnโt show up to my class. I didnโt pay attention to them though, my mind was fixated on when a doctor would come out of those big double doors and tell me any type of news.
Goodโฆ.badโฆ.just not none at all, because knowing nothing is way worse than knowing the worst.
I watched different families walk in and out of the waiting room. I was jealous of them, they got answers and yet I was still left in the dust.
I was about to look at the clock again til a shadow casted over me. A tall man stood over me, seemingly a doctor since he had scrubs on.
My heart stopped finally the moment Iโve been waiting for. My questions will finally be answered yet part of me still is terrified to find out the truth.
โMr. Sturniolo is it?โ
โYes yes thatโs me,โ I stood up
โAvery had a very rough nightโฆher low oxygen levels caused her to go hypoxemia. But after hours of trying to bring her levels back up she finally stabilized.โ
Stabilized, once I heard that word I felt a weight be lifted off my chest. The world that was once spinning around stopped and I could finally breathe properly again.
โIs she awake yet? Can I see her?โ I choked out, โshe hasnโt woken up yet but I can take you back to see her I suppose.โ
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The first thing I heard was a steady beeping noise, normally it would annoy but at the moment I found peace in it.
I slowly opened my eyes to face the world that I wish I wasnโt in. The bright hospital lights blinded me, Iโm not sure how Iโm still here right now, especially since I didnโt call or text anyone about my plans exceptโฆ
Chris my eyes landed on his tired, limp body. He was slouched over my bed, he didnโt notice me quite yet which is probably for the better. The gears in my brain started turning, what if Chris was the one that saved me?
The thought popped up in my mind, before I could fully overthink it Chris lifted his head. Our eyes met, his once tired eyes shifted into a more shocked and happy expression once he saw me.
โYouโre awake,โ he smiled at me, the type of smile he used to give me in the morning when he had just woken up. โYou are too,โ I softly whispered
He chuckled at my remark, โEven after everything that happened last night you still manage to have your sarcastic side donโt you.โ My smile slightly faded with the thought of last night.
โLook babydollโฆI know we havenโt talked in a while and you probably hate me now for everything Iโve done. But last night, the call, finding you on the bathroom floor..it all really made me realizeโฆ.i canโt live in a world where youโre not in it. I know itโs a dick move to only come back when something like this happensโฆbut better late than never am I right?โ
I gave a tired smile, โI understand why you did itโฆbut what I donโt understand was why you didnโt just tell me the situationโฆafter you broke up with me and completely vanished from my life I felt so alone, no one to turn too or lean on, just me by myself.โ Tears started to form in my eyes,
โI know I know I fucked upโฆI shouldnโt have done that and I know that now. Please just give me a second chance I promise Iโll do betterโฆ.please babydoll.โ His eyes were turning glassy as his lip quivered.
I stared at him, analyzed his expressions, burned the image of his red glassy eyes into my brain. โOkayโฆโ I whispered as I laid my weak hand on top of his. โOkay?โ He said back to me, โyeahโฆokay,โ I smiled genuinely this time.
I may be too forgiving to him or maybe I shouldโve made him work harder for my trust again. But I know that without him my life was a complete reck so maybeโฆhopefully with this second chance I can make my shitty life less of a mess than it already is.
โOkay I brought you some breakfast today so you donโt have to eat the disgusting hospital food.โ Chris marched his way into my hospital room.
He sat down on my bed right beside me and set down the bag of food. โThank youโฆbut I am starting to question how youโve been able to miss so many classes of yours without getting in trouble.โ
Chris chuckled slightly, โwell for starters I havenโt been missing if theyโre not my classes anymore.โ
Shock jolted through my body, โWhat?!โฆWhy!? โ
Chris scratched the back of his neck, โwell technically I was firedโฆbut itโs fine because I was gonna quit anyway.โ
โHold on pauseโฆwhy were you fired? And secondly why were you gonna quit?โ
โWell ignoring your bosses texts on why you werenโt in school was probably the root of me getting laid offโฆand I was gonna quit because I got offered another job.โ
โAnd that job being?โ My nosy side finally making a return.
โNick asked me to help him with the clothing brand in London.โ I gasped in excitement, and hit Chrisโs chest playfully โno way! Iโm so happy for you!โ I hugged him even though my iv was putting a little strain on it.
โI canโt believe this youโre finally getting to fulfill your dreams!โ Chris smiled, โyeah well itโs all thanks to you honestly.โ I scrunched my face โme? Why me?โ
โWell a little bit back when we were still together and I was still trying to work things out with him. I thought to myself maybe if I couldnโt take part in this brand then maybe you could. So I told him that I had a model that would love to work with him and then that led to him asking me more about my ideas and thoughts on the brand. Which then led to me sending him design ideas, media advice, and now here we areโฆ.I was gonna tell you about it but then we broke up and cut contact so I didnโt really know how to.โ
He looked at me as if he was praying in his mind I wouldnโt be mad but truthfully I was the complete opposite. I giggled, โIโm glad I helped you make up with your brother and get this amazing job even though I didnโt even know about it.โ
We looked into each otherโs eyes, mesmerized by each otherโs features. I could see the gears shifting in his brain, like an idea just popped up out of nowhere.
โCome with me to London, come be a model there,โ
โChris we just got back togetherโฆโ
โI know I know but donโt think about it as youโre going to London to be with me think about it as youโre going to London to fulfill your dreams.โ
His words were overwhelming me with possibilities, โI-I donโt know what to sayโฆโ he took both of his hands in mine โsay yes babydollโฆIโll get us a apartment, we can site see together, Iโll show up to your shoots with coffee, youโll show up to my office withโฆyourself. It wouldnโt be perfect but it would be us.โ
I thought about it for a minute, I truly did. What if we breakup againโฆwhat if we donโtโฆwhat if I suck at modelingโฆwhat if Iโm phenomenal. What ifโฆ
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