NerdyAlienGirl

I wish to die. No one understands me. I’m an idiot. I’m a foolish. My existence is just a waste of breath. Today, I got in an argument with my mother and accidentally pushed her and she opened her head open. I feel horrible. I cannot cry. Maybe like my sister told me. I’m a devil. I don’t deserve to live. Why was I even born? I’m a constant failure. At work, with the family and on a personal level. I’m useless and I don’t deserve to live. I’m horrible. I’m stupid. I’m mindless. My anger is so destructive. Why do I live? What is the purpose of my life if everyone isn’t happy with me? My sister keeps cursing me. Maybe, I deserve it. I’m not needed. My family wishes I go to work from office and curse the stars for having me sit and work from home because of COVID19. Perhaps, they aren’t mistaken. My existence is just causing hurt. I have no need. No one loved, loves or will ever love me. I cannot even cry. Huh! What a fool. Why God, why did you create me? To be miserable? To make those around me, miserable too?!