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ive actually be3n cryin gfor am hour statifht i don4 mno2 2hay to do i cant see my screen b3acuse of thr tears a d im shaking

i feel like a fraud in every aspect of my life

fuck man

phone calls are a humiliation ritual

what if i offed myself ^_^

i am actually so scared shitless for tomorrow lollll

my condition is worsenig hahaha i feel really really bad and im running out of the good pain meds i only have two left to get me through the whole of tomorrow and im so tired and dizzy and in pain and all i can think about is how im goinf to have to excuse myself from everyhing tomorrow because theres so much work i havent done due to the growing abscess in my face and the fever ive have for the past week now. and i have another test and i just cant write it i dont know what to do. all ive done today is sleep and all i want to do is sleep forever and its not èven to escape the pain, my body is just So tired

hahahah legs nearly gave out while running today and i lowkey cant feel my toes and also. a couple fingers. puter am i about to die

lwts see if i actually wake up tomorrow morning for a run

ive been doing a lot of thinking lately

i just feel like i fuck up no matter what

feeling like i should just never talk to anyone ever or ask them for anything ever again. and especially i should not talk about myself