neightsaid

Kinda numb

Numb is like getting my through

Don’t feel alive

I made my phone background this

I’m sad I didn’t stand up for it

I’m sad I didn’t open myself up to others because oddly enough I bestowed a boundary there.

Me deleting my socials, well one they were already deleted.

But I’m tired of being hindered from people who “think” they know me, only because they have seen me.

I also have to take responsibility of being around or have involved myself with people like this.

I really am shedding the idea of me being a promoter, and I have to reframe it.

I dunno in this same breathe I thought of tanjiros soul

I don’t like women in societal standards

I barely like people.

I be smiling and looking at people like damn I’m kinda feeling crazy and everything would be better if I’m dead. And maybe I say those things to calm myself a bit with the overreactional response of life would be better if I wasn’t here

Numbing the pain