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I thought you were it for me.

And they loved each other like they would die tomorrow, because they knew that even if they didn’t die, their love eventually would.

‘I can’t stop thinking about you,’ I whisper to the wall as if you’re there. ‘You don’t know how incredible you are,’ I tell it. It doesn’t answer. I don’t expect it to. ‘I hate that I love you.’ ‘Just the thought of you keeps me up at night. I mean look at me. It’s two in the morning and here I am talking to a wall.’ My chest heaves. ‘I wish I was talking to you.’

So alone. So alone and afraid.

I have a messed up heart because of you. It’s not your fault, it’s mine. I fell a little too hard for that sweet, toxic smile of yours and it completely ruined me inside. I closed myself off to everyone. Except for you. I think no matter how much time passes by there will always be a little space inside me, left just for you.