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⚰ Im andrew or jonah. my pronouns are it/hx/him. treat me with respect. i am also an adult, so minors leave me alone, and everyone else too.

⚰ I am wholy and entirely devoted to my partner @nekrocutie. They are my entire world, and i adore them. My lovely sibling, my darling pet, you name it. They are the love of my life <33 wanna read my lovemail for them? Click HERE!!

⚰ This is my personal blog for anything i want, so fuck off if you dont like that. Posts about my partner, interests or anything i want goes here.

"I love you when you smile".

I didnt really lose you,

I just lost it for a while.

I need to fucking learn how to bite my tongue. I need to learn how to not just fucking spit from the mouth abd say shit i dont mean because i always fucking regret it. Im so tired of being a horrible fucking person. Its so sickening the way i fucking treat people who love me. I dont deserve their fucking love or time or affection and its so obvious with how i fucking treat people. I need to fucking rot in hell and suffer. Im genuinely nauseous. I wish i could just die. I wish everyone whos ever known me never fucking met me so i didnt ruin their fucking lives. I cant even make my own fucking girlfriend happy. All they do is suffer around me and fucking beg for scraps of attention. My gaze is filthy. They shouldnt want it. Im so disgusted in myself.

Heres my official appreciation post of the day to make up for not posting about leyley enough.

To start this off I just want to say that I love my sister, and I'm lucky to even have them in the first place. I spend so much time with them everyday, time I'm so greatful to have. They mean everything to me. Its not very often that you get not only a Sister, but a Partner and Bestfriend all in one. They are my everything, truly. I love them so much it makes me look forward to waking up in the morning. Its so amazing. Even on the days I'm struggling, I never suffer for long because I have my little Leyley.

Today, they let me redo their blog. I had so much fun sitting on the phone with them while my laptop fucking shit the bed, forcing me to make the thing on my phone. Even now, as my laptops in shambles I cant bring myself to really be upset, because I have my Ashley sitting with me. Their presence alone makes me feel so safe. So cared for. I know they love me, and I can only try to give them back as much love as they give me.

Today I finished the first step in this gift I'm making them and im so excited to work on it some more. I cant wait until i finally get my fucking paycheck so I can start saving..... and then blow it by spoiling them with a bunch of gifts.

As I write this, theyre fucking??? Showing their legs on camera and just doin BULLSHIT and you know what? Its the cutest thing ever. Even when they beat the shit out of their small rodent toy. Oh okay and their phone died. Thats what I get for being a pervert and focusing on the fact I could see their panties instead of what they were doing.