one more light.

i’m gonna say real quick now, that his entire past and history is a mystery to majority of people..? like unless it’s plotted they know, then it’s kinda just ??? yup

but okay

he was raised in an abusive household– his farther had gotten removed from military service for violence / drugs so he took it out on taeil and his mother  

ran away with his mother when he was 8 and they lived on the streets of busan for a few months before his grandparents got them a small apartment after finding out

mother remarried when he was 10, his life turned from rags to riches only not in the good way because his mother never paid attention to him from then on, too busy doting on his new 2 year old step-sister. he literally became a ghost to her bcos she just wouldn’t even look at him, she was like lookin past him

13 and he set fire to his room thinking he could scare her into paying attention– the plan goes wrong as his room is engulfed quicker than he thought and after getting severe burns on his hands and legs ( to the point he’s lost most sense of touch in his hands and feet because of how the skin burnt.. so he can’t feel most things he touches and stuff ) he jumps out the window– everyone in the house but him dies and taeil honestly feels no guilt

moved in with his aunt and uncle and cousin after that ( when he first came to nampo ), the only guilt he felt was to his mother because he really did love her

became really really close with his cousin while he was in seoul, but his aunt and uncle ain’t too fond of this kid for obvious reasons and because taeil was definitely not their ideal image but they still forced him into suits and shit for public reputation tbh ( like also made him do classical music so it’s surprising but he can play violin and piano.. he just doesn’t advertise that )

high school first year and he starts getting into using weed as a coping mechanism, fits in with the outcasts of his school and starts getting into fights a lot. as it comes to the end of the year he’s drinking a lot more as well, and he gets into fights nearly every day, in and out of school. ( the only upside is he meets his best friend who grounds the hell of him )

second year is worse and he’s onto higher class drugs, addicted as hell to them and alcohol and he’s just fighting all the time, getting suspended all the time and just nobody can stop him. he’s sleeping around as well, like picks up random people for sex until he gets a boyfriend near the end of the year who started as a fwb

also should be pointed out here that over second year and into his next year, especially following the accident in the point below, taeil tries to kill himself all the time and the self harm is major in what he does, his depression is as destructive as he is. but it’s easy to say that within 2 years taeil will have tried to kill himself over 40 times

he gets into a motorbike accident one night into his last year and his cousin dies instead of him– aka fuel him more into his destructive life style as his aunt and uncle kick him out. he isn’t allowed to attend the funeral and his bf now spends like every day fighting with him and trying to get him to stop

one night they have a really bad fight where he accuses taeil of turning into his father bcos he was abusing his bf honestly and it causes him to actually stop and think– it’s a hard process but over the year his bf weens him off the drugs and alcohol because taeil was still pushing away the idea of rehab tbh but he does get to a little bit of a stable point for that time

after high school though, taeil allows himself to be forcefully put into rehab for his addictions, and he does try really hard actually

which is now a good time to point a major thing that taeil is terrified of hospitals / sterile environments - just shit like that - like full on make him have panic attacks and throw up sometimes and it’s just bad like he’s so scared of them. a big reason for it is bcos of the cousin’s death, as well as his many suicide attempts, but either way, they are difficult for him ( like to the point he will not go near a hospital unless there is a serious emergency or it’s to do with his kids, but they scare him that badly )

but by 20 he is clean off drugs and almost like a new person honestly because he’s moved back to seoul, and his idea of opening a dance studio becomes reality as he opens ‘the royals dance studio’ ( it’s vvv much like 1million dance )

and now is a good time to point out taeil is real fuckin rich but by nothing of his own doing like it’s literally bcos of his best friend and ex bf ( who he broke up with at the end of high school ) since they basically supply him with cash since he just can’t work a normal fckn job, but he stores it in an account he and his best friend share ( they’re vvv close ) so they kind just share it out - but no one really knows tbh

but yea he opens that, and then taeil also becomes the adoptive father of two twins that are actually his best friends kids, but his best friend and his gf weren’t ready, and it was a big sign of trust bcos taeil has always wanted to have kids, but never believed he’d have them? he wants to prove he can be a good father + do smthing right ( but they’re twin girls called sunhee & sunjun and they’re 6 )

and yea, since then he’s mostly just focused on his dancing and his kids, and he’s pretty famous choreographer now and he works with a big company too, but like he helps to train idols, choreograph dances and just works with big places. he also runs classes and shit too, and has a dance club that is free for anyone to come to esp for those looking for an escape ( like he’s gotten large praise for helping kids find ways to release anger, or show how they feel through dance )

he does a lot of mental health awareness too tbh and drug and alcohol awareness stuff too

BUT basically in terms of the situation now, taeil came back for the trip basically. like he got told from a friend and decided to come back for it, and he brought his girls with him but they were staying with a close friend that didn’t wanna go ( and tbf taeil didn’t feel up to going either he kinda just got dragged into it ). so yea.. his girls were not with him, and therefore are now gone and taeil is.. messed up

basically the progress he’s made since becoming clean and starting over away from it all has like near shattered bcos he’s beginning to pick up the drink again and drugs if he can and he’s restraining as much as he can but he literally just lost everything, not to mention he was staying outside of town to so he doesn’t even have an actual place to go or any of his stuff. so he’s kinda somewhat back to the person he was in high school just not as bad, but also at the same time worse in his own ways bcos he’s older now and he can be crueller 

either way, he ain’t about the system, will not follow rules someone applies to him and he doesn’t give a shit about you unless you’re his daughters ( that being said obvs can be plotted out he has close friends and stuff. there are interesting plots that can be done with taeil anyway )

either way.. personality wise he’s an asshole for the most part, but he’s a lot more chll than he used to be he can just come off grumpy ( is becoming the cruel asshole again tho )

kids make him gentle af tho

he’s vv tsundere