just an echo of the promise we made

NATTERGHAST ; an indie, original multimuse of contemporary fantasy, dimension adjacent, mostly nonhuman muses inspired by fantasy, horror, sci-fi and fairy tales. crossover friendly !! 

˚ · • . ° . & HEADCANONS ; holiday traditions, two ˚ · • . ° .

heeeey, so, currently at a painful little waiting period wherein i might have developed endometriosis. but i probably won't know for another several months, if at all, because... United States healthcare system and wait times.

in July when Donnie was nearing his end i developed a bladder issue (potentially Bladder Pain Syndrome) that remained on and off until late September. now i'm in near pain constantly with overall worsened symptoms. pain used to be just centered around my bladder, but it's spread to my hips and lower back. already had a CT scan to check for kidney stone (negative).

i hit dead-on with all the symptoms for BPS, which on its own is a chronic condition where the bladder lining inflames sometimes and makes the bladder size smaller, causing pain and discomfort.

... but endometriosis can also cause BPS, and i've always had horrendous periods off of birth control. suffice to say with my symptoms now worsening instead of fluctuating, i'm very worried.

if i can wedge out some time i think i might write tomorrow, but we'll see; i've my affiliate anniversary on twitch to plan as well. ( twitch really takes up most of my time these days. i've been working on a massive channel redesign i want to finish up by january too! )

& DASHBOARD FUN ; Geid -ˋˏ ༻❁༺ ˎˊ-

𝐂𝐎𝐋𝐎𝐔𝐑𝐒 ;

Oily Black.

Necromancer Green.

Peat Brown.

𝐒𝐂𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐒 ;

Dampened earth after rainfall, or dew.

Rot like old wood.

The sulfurous decay of a swamp.

A forest carpet of fallen leaves in autumn.

𝐅𝐀𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐎𝐍 ;

(note* Geid uses a glamour and doesn't wear real clothes. He's a living ooze. They modeled their clothes off of the common folk of the time.)

Well-used boots with overshoes of rubber, whose soles have waded through marsh and thicket.

Work shirts of muslin that liken to centuries past, with rolled sleeves and an undone and rumpled collar.

Muddy pants worn low for comfort, with the cuffs rolled high.

𝐎𝐁𝐉𝐄𝐂𝐓𝐒 ;

A large, rough-hewn, rope hammock that's noticeably discolored.

Old, rusty bear traps with lichen growing on the edges.

A chipped tea set.

Handmade wreathes and bowls of potpourri, with bark, herbs and wildflowers.

A faded deck of cards with bent edges.

𝐁𝐎𝐃𝐘 𝐋𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐔𝐀𝐆𝐄 ;

Running gentle hands over objects, both the familiar and new, to memorize their shape — their beauty and imperfections.

The apprehension of one too large for a space, of taking up too much room; of making others uncomfortable or frightened. Open hands, tight shoulders, awkward smiles.

Absent, wordless singing along with the wind, wood, and brook during busywork or trap setting.

Seeping when under duress. Often begins with large dollops from the hair as it falls out of shape.

𝐀𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐓𝐈𝐂𝐒 ;

Retribution, and the necessity in responding with violence when all other options have been exhausted. How heavy a burden it rests when compassion for your fellow creatures is not returned in kind. How war, no matter how just, leaves destruction in its wake — and the deep scars that follow.

Healing as a long path with each stone placed by hand. As a cumbersome task with difficult steps and many failures. Of choosing, again and again, to continue forward. Of seeing the coming of spring even in the harshest of winters.

Decay not as a death but a continuation of life; a rebirth, life taken to new form. Appreciation for even the smallest of creatures and how their bodies nourish all.

Repose after a great violence. Gentleness borne under the unlikeliest of circumstances.

Nature. Forests, both young and old; great plains, marshes, valleys, and all. How structures of old inevitably fall to the seasons. Speaking a language lost to many, knowing the names. Paying respects to the bounties given.

trying to conceptualize devisee's mama some more (not her final design)