Nathaniel Sharpe

Postmarked: 1st of November 2020

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Postmark: August 31st 2020

Penny, 

If you are getting this, something has probably happened. I finally remembered or someone decided to eliminate the problem before it became one. Now that the end has come, I guess I can admit it. I remembered. I have remembered for a month or so, but I was too afraid to admit it. I knew this would be the outcome. It doesn’t matter now though. It’s over. 

Enough about that though, I wanted to talk about you. I love you, Penny Lane. You are the best friend I ever could have imagined having. You loved me when no one else did, and you even learned sign language for me. I was extremely lucky to have you in my life. I hope you aren’t sad for too long. I hope Verity takes really fucking good care of you. Tell her if she doesn’t, I will haunt her. 

Listen... I am not sure I believe in a higher power. I want to say I do, but that is mostly because I don’t want to just not exist. I can’t live in a void. I would lose my mind. I hope to think one day our paths will cross again. Two hearts entwined forever. 

Don’t tell me if I’m dying,  cause I don’t wanna know. If I can’t see the sun;  maybe I should go. Don’t wake me cause I’m dreaming... of angels on the moon.  Where everyone you know,  never leaves too soon.

Fallon gave him a small smile when he put his hand on hers. “I don’t think that’s true. If anything not knowing who you were showed more of your true self.  You weren’t able to put on any kind of act.”

Fallon looked down, fidgeting with her fingers in her lap.  She felt like trauma defined her whole life.  First everything that had happened with Alec and her sister, then her ex boyfriend abusing her, now this.  She looked at him sadly and nodded. “Well, I just remember being in awe of how strong you were.”

Fallon sighed softly. “I don’t really know what to say because I feel like people would say it’s okay. But it wasn’t okay, so I don’t know. I guess I’ll just say thank you?”   She didn’t want to mention that her sister had died being one of -A’s pawns, not when she knew how scared he was already.  “I don’t know why that was my first thought to share.  I’m sorry.”

Fallon looked at him, wishing she could help with his pain.  It was one of the worst parts of being a nurse, seeing people in pain when you couldn’t do anything for them.  Maybe she should try to take some painkillers from work for him.  “Me? I’m awfully boring. I promise.” She laughed softly before chewing her lip.  “I moved to Baberton with my family years ago. My sister she was…killed…recently.” She admitted.

Penny: I don’t think going into it is something you actually plan on doing.

Nate: yeah, probably not.

Nate: definitely didn’t plan on being buried alive.

Fallon looked at him. “You know, I wouldn’t worry too much about what you used to be like and if you are different now. People change all the time and trauma can affect you.” She knew her ex boyfriend had certainly changed her and she felt like a different person now after Angel’s death.  She nodded at his comment about the over the counter stuff. “Well, I can add it to your chart and talk to a doctor if you think you might need something stronger.”

Penny: It sounds like even when you start to remember, you might have to pretend you don’t.

Penny: I don’t know what I would do if they put you in witness protection and I lost you.

Nate: yeah. I can’t remember. It is too dangerous. 

“So are you saying you that because you’re a giant flirt, I shouldn’t feel that special about you wanting to flirt with me?” Fallon teased, though she knew it was probably the truth. It wasn’t like she was anything special.  She kept her hand on his temple a bit longer, before lowering her fingers. “Did they prescribe anything for them?”