jai guru deva om

And you weep, to yourself, wishing that you do not love him anymore. 

one day, someone will come in your life and all he could say, "ah, there you are. where have you been all this time?" and you will know. 

I have not been in touch with myself lately. I want to write something but words will not suffice whatever it is I am feeling as of the moment. I want to tell stories that are good and will paint smile on people's faces. However, it does not happen. Therefore, forgive me for the lack of interesting things in this place. It does not feel familiar anymore. My hands are not working the same way they were before. And I, well, I am becoming what I was before - a monster, depressed, sad, and mourning for the death of my heart. My heart that was touched by another human being that did not feel the same way towards me. But how could I live when I was never alive before?

Maybe in that perfect universe, we deserve each other.

Sometimes I forget that you are just a dream and dream is all you will ever be.

i. the death of heart is the ugliest death there is. ii. a traveller is never alone. iii. the true adventures of life come to those who truly seek it. iv. your life is a gift and not everyone has it. so live it well. take care of your body. rest your mind. clean your system. let your heart not be stirred. v. you will go well in this life. you just have to have the courage to do so. vi. clear your mind of can’t. vii. turn your whys into why not. viii. do not cage yourself. open up. don’t worry, it’s okay to ask help. ix. the bests are yet to come. there’s no need to hurry. x. the great Guru listens to us and He loves us.

Your life is a book that consists of chapters that you’ve yet to write. So write and write them well. People will judge you for what they don’t know about you. That’s okay, things like that happen quite often. But do not cover yourself too much or else people will continue to say such words without really knowing and opening you up to the core. Tell good stories. It’s okay, the bad ones are also worth reading. Pursue happy endings and if happy endings don’t happen, don’t worry, the story is still unfinished. You will meet a lot of other characters and if you’re lucky enough, they will stick with you until the end. They will bring excitement, sadness, happiness and it’s up to you how you will react to them. Let your life be full of commas, question marks, exclamation marks, colons. Avoid the impasse called period. Make everything as memorable as you want them to be. The bests are yet to come.

Too much investment over something without much guarantee and not enough interest to step it up another notch, is a road taken that you thought was right but end up getting lost in the process. And it shouldn’t be like that. There are as many roads that you can take in this lifetime. Different paths that will lead you to the great withdrawal of your life. Don’t focus so much on the future. It’s not happening yet. You can’t be spending so much time thinking about the future. We have our present time. And we must live in the now to get ourselves started for what might and could happen. You can’t be planning all the time if you’re going to blow them off afterwards. Stop creating rules that you don’t follow. Take you best foot forward and lead yourself to walk. You don’t have to run, it’s not a grand competition and if you’re competing, you’re only competing with yourself. You have to learn how to appreciate every step of the way, every dirt on the ground, every wrong path you take. You live to travel and to transcend through time. Be wise. Make decisions with your heart and mind settled on one great adventure. The maps of your destiny are already laid in front of you. We are travellers waiting to find our own destiny and to be found by our one, true love. Don’t be lost in your journey.

once in your life, you will meet someone. he will ruin your mascara, put bruises in your soul, and tear your heart apart. you will let him ruin your life and somewhere in between, you will make yourself believe that everything is happening because it is meant to happen. but that is not right. you can prevent all of this from happening if you let yourself. if it brings you pain rather than excitement, sadness rather than happiness – let it go. it is not worth it and a beautiful person like you, with your mother’s eyes and your father’s lips, does not deserve such a treatment. do not be scared of committing a mistake or regretting some of your decisions. it will heal you if you let it. and one day, without a doubt, someone will open the door and the windows of your heart and soul and he will pick up the pieces and he will heal every wound in you. they may leave unattractive scars  but you know in yourself, that is the last time you will bear them. 

I'm all for Ezra Koenig.